RosQyLynn

2008-08-26T01:03:00.003+08:00

Ros. Me Love.

PERSEVERANCE.

Kalau besar yang dituntut dan mulia yang dicari, nescaya banyaklah kepayahan & kesusahan melaluinya, panjang jalannya dan banyak rintangannya.

- Imam Al-Ghazali

When pleasing & obeying Allah, we may suffer from society, from family or from other sources.

And no matter who you are, if you are in the path of Allah, you will encounter difficulties, because Paradise is rounded by hardships.

If things are easy & just flowing, then one must check him/herself.

All these may be difficult to achieve for some in the beginning, but when one overcomes him/herself for the sake of Allah, then all the other obstacles are nothing.

How to overcome oneself?? By knowing Allah by His names (Asma Ul Husna) & attributes ( Sifat 20 Allah) , by loving Allah & His Messenger, by obeying Allah and His Messenger & then, help of Allah is there since He is the one who is pleased.

Rosdahliana

2008-08-19T08:26:00.002+08:00

Ros

i feel hopeless.

everytime i feel horrible.

i dun think i'm going to make it.

this is all bcos of me.

my fault. my own weaknesses.

i can't blame anyone except myself.

i have to be responsible.

without me realising, i'm actually putting myself in pain.

putting othrs in pain too.

such selfishness!

i think too much of the consequences.

till i'm too afraid to speak.

till i'm too afraid to make my move.

i isolate myself. i hide myself.

i nvr tell anyone anything.

i dunnoe wat wld happen to me nxt.

wateva happens nxt, hope it'll be good.

if it doesn't, then i think i reali deserve it.

i just hope that i'll learn from my mistakes.

i'll grow and develop myself.

and i hope thr's still chance for me.

is thr??

Yang baik semuanya itu dpd Allah swt,
Dan yang buruk itu adalah dpd kesalahan dan kekurangan kita sendiri.

Rosdahliana

2008-08-12T15:25:00.002+08:00

Ros

Awesome!

Haha. Dunnoe y suddenly "Awesome"?? That word was in my head. All of a sudden.

Ouh yea no more classes. I dunnoe whtr it is a gd or a bad thing. No classes means I'm free from the boredom in lecture. Bt that also means clinics.

I had fun last Sun with few mates. No madrsa class but we had sports day. The Muslimins were playing soccer, as usual, and the Muslimahs played Captain's Ball. I miss Captain's Ball! I miss P.E in sch!! Oklah, a gd game bt we hv to stopped half-way cos it was pouring heavily. My objective is achieved. I just wanne run around and have fun and bring home a prize. N yeah I did! We gt 3rd.. haha. N we made some new frens too.

I had lunch at Arab St js now. Had a chance to jalan-jalan carik pasal around that area. I love the shops there! Stopped by the bookstore. I was looking for this particular book. I gt the book and I saw two interesting books. 1st book: "An Excellent Wife". 2nd book: "Don't Be Sad" I think I need those books. Especially the 2nd one. Really. It's a good book. But too bad I dun hv enough money with me to get one. I'll get it one day. InsyaAllah.

I like the way Amalyna & Kiki posted. I like the words they used.

Oklah. tats all. At one moment, inside my head, I can think of alot of things to update bout. But now suddenly my mind just went off and I just cnt think of anything.

My last note:

Ramadhan is coming ppl!!!
haha!
Get yourself physically, mentally and spiritually ready.
There'll be lots of obstacles infront of you. Be strong and get thru it.
Rmember... No gossips! No fights! No sinful stuffs! Watch your words...
Behave well and take care!
Wish to celebrate Hari Raya with all of you ppl..

Bandung-is-pink
Have u ever wondered why?

2008-08-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
dealing with reality is so troublesome

updated over at the other site. couldn't abandon this one either.
today, i realised

1) i cannot stand the sound of ticking clock. because it reminds me of the time i wasted.

2) my relationship with a few friends is not in its best place i think. drifted apart a little due to what i'm not so sure. situations change. on my part, i guess i felt that some people, because they have many others who can make them feel special, i don't have to be there with them all the time. i don't like to be clingy either.

3) i'm really a procrastinator. this, i realised way back. aarrggghh. i'm supposed to study. but i'm so distracted cos my mp3 is missing. sobs.

4) i don't like where i am right now. time is so wasted on me.

study hard peeps.
get somewhere in life & make decisions without regrets.

2008-08-06T11:35:00.001+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

EXAMS ARE ROUND THE CORNER! GOOD LUCK COOKIES!

With love,
KiKi~
Away.With.The.Formats.

2008-08-02T11:15:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

After much deliberation and complains, i will reveal the other blog. It's here.

I just randomly tag people and that's how they know it so for those of you whom i did not tag, please do not feel offended. I wanted to tag all but time didn't allow me to do so and hence, the random tagging. Muahahahaha.

Enjoy your days ahead!

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
See.Ya.On.The.Other.Side.

2008-08-01T10:52:00.005+08:00

Ros

Hello world!!

Ouh, finally it's friday! hehe. I used to say that happily but nw fri means tmrw is Sat. And sat means nothing but clinics.. Early in the morning.. I used to enjoy my sat mornings jogging.. (hahaha. smangat..!) Or just lazing ard at hm.. Ok, dun complain.. But still Friday is a good day. Esp for the Muslims. And to the Muslim boys, pls do not skip ur Friday prayer. You dunnoe how important it is to you. For the girls, pls behave yourselves on Friday and do some good deeds. You'll benefit double the price. hehehe. Here's the story:

Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning): “O you who believe (Muslims)! When the call is proclaimed for the Salaah (prayer) on Friday (Jumu‘ah prayer), come to the remembrance of Allaah [Jumu‘ah religious talk (Khutbah) and Salaah (prayer)] and leave off business (and every other thing). That is better for you if you did but know!”

[al-Jumu’ah 62:9]

The Prophet s.a.w said: “Whoever neglects three Jumu’ahs, Allaah will place a seal on his heart.”

Exam's coming... Need to study.. Need to study... hehe. I've always like studying at 3am.. It's when everybody's asleep and it's very very quiet.. Nice man! Sometimes too quiet la.. Sometimes while studying in my room, I heard some noise from the living room or from outside my window.. hehe. creepy huh?? But wateva la.. Js ignore those things and continue studying.. I'm not scared. Blueks!! (Cheyy action berani.. Skali btol2 dtg... Baru tau...)

But actoli there are some benefits(hikmah) to be up at ard 3am to do some deeds, while everybody else is sleeping so soundly. Deeds include night prayers, studying for exams... etc. It doesn't have to be at 3am but somewhr ard that time. It can be at 2 or 4 am also but it has to be before dawn. 3am is just my own preferance. Wake up, do some night prayer, pray that your mind and heart will be open for knowledge and only the good stuffs, and then study or do what you're supposed to do. InsyaAllah, tmrw will be a great day for you and you'll do well in your exams. If you don't, then dun despair. Just give yourself anothr chance and maybe you gotto work a bit harder. And remember, all these has to be done calmly and deliberately. hehe. Dun mind me. Js sharing some stuffs I know.

Some ppl come into our lives only for a season.
I've met those ppl in my 8teen yrs of life.
They've come to share, grow and learn together with me.
They made me laugh. They taught me things I have nvr done.
They gave me an unbelievable amount of joy.
I believed it! It was real! It happened!
But only for a season.

Now, they've left me alone.
It's hard to cope when we part.
But there must be some blessings in disguise. I am sure.
I have to learn to walk this world alone.
I have to stand up for myself.
I have to plan for my own life.

To those ppl, whoever you are, (you may not know that I'm refering to you):
Thanks so much for ur time wimme. I've always enjoyed ur companion. Pls take care. And I hope that u're in good health and may u be blessed always.

Rosdahliana

2008-07-31T15:39:00.005+08:00

.amalyna.
with no reason

the weather is hot today. well, for the past few days as well. it's kind of affecting my mood.oh well. lots happened the past week. lazy to type it all down. with exams coming, i still don't feel like doing anything at all. i guess i hafta do something about it, at least after all the meetings this week are over. which reminds me i hafta head back to school in an hour for ADD meeting. i haven't been doing anything other than secretarial stuffs for the comm. i really don't feel like doing anything extra since i have lots on my hands. with revision, proposals, itp & housework to take care of. i'm not a wondergirl (though i wish i'm one,doi.lol). i think i'm fine if i do the things i'm obliged to do, anything other than that will have to depend on my mood and how it benefits me. sometimes, you have to be selfish and draw the line in a commitment. that is perhaps my new added principle. you can't be nice or be treated nicely all the time. the two-faced world.

today's ccs lesson was interesting to me. biz ethics and issues like corruption and stuffs like that. being the no.1 least corrupted country in asia is awesome. don't think i can bear living in a corrupted world. but of course in ethics, where do you draw the line? that was something i kept thinking about. what is the ethical thing to do so that you won't live the rest of your life thinking of what ifs?hmm.

wanted to go to garden fest earlier with the sisters but it's too troublesome to rush down to school again. so went home to rest instead and watched sgb on yt. speaking of yt, they seem to be on a suspending spree these days.wth. one of my fave subscriber got suspended twice. it's too bad cos he's like my fave k subber. posted a comment on mr's page. wonder if she'll reply and pass the message to them. that'll be uber cool. ooh, shucks they're in china now. (-.-)"

donut doi aka takoyaki scares me.blardy bird stalker.lol!
shumin help!

2008-07-28T18:49:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"My blog is updated over at you-know-where."

Have fun reading! Competition pictures are there :DD

-KiKi ouTz-
Am.I.A.Deviant.?.

2008-07-28T13:52:00.002+08:00

Ros

If you cld read my mind..
If you cld feel what I am feeling..
If you know about my dreams..
If you know what I am going thru..

Would you be there for me???

2008-07-28T09:20:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Deq Ratna got 3rd placing for last Saturday's competition."

Congratulations girls! All those hard work and everyday trainings paid off. A job well done. We did good, so now let's aim for the better aite? Pictures will be uploaded as soon as those children who brought their cameras along upload their photos. And i'll upload the video when i have more time.

As usual, menjelang comp or performance jek adeeee jek penyakit yang menyerang diriku. Hahahhaha. I'm still recovering very slowly coz i still have school work to rush to. Many presentations and final works due this week. I hope i can pull it thru. My mom and grandma have been saying that i've been spending too much time at school till i got sick. Maybe true. But what to do, aku da saket nk mampos pon classmate aku mati-mati suroh aku gi online. Sape tk menyirap siol darah. Mintak kene sepak seh. Jangan sampai satu hari aku mengamok sudah ah...

That's all for now. Just wanna share the happy news. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
Merepek.Sial.Perangai.

2008-07-26T22:41:00.004+08:00

Ros

Heyy world..!

Bad gurl didn't update her blog for like a wk oreadi. hahaha. The usual reasons. BUSY. NO TIME. TIRED. I hardly do any housework lah. And my mom will start her singing. I wanted to but didn't get a chance to do it. I usually do all the chores on Sat. But see nw my sat is occupied with clinics and usually after that I always gt sth on. Like today act was supposed to meet up with the gurls for our mad's project. Then, it was cancelled. And then, had to follow mom and aunt to do some shopping. (But worth it cos I gt a new shoe. Weee..!) So when to do?? haha. Act, it's possible. Time management is the key. But that's like my no. 1 weakness la.. Nvm. Can conquer.. Can conquer.. InsyaAllah.

So stress these days. School, exams, clinics... bla bla bla. I'm really struggling wif sch.. Tough time. With my attitude sumore like (dots!). I dunnoe why am i not putting in effort and giving out my fullest. Why am I so can't-be-bothered ever since I enter poly? My course is interesting but I dunnoe why I dun feel dedicated doing my work. And I dun like to do work in a rush. Such a haste! I'm the type who takes her time to do her work deliberately. If you rush me can lah. Then the work will be complete but the result very lousy la. Sumtimes I feel like quiting sch.. But NO! NO! I dun want to disappoint my dad and the ppl who has been giving me hope when I persuade in this course. Love you ppl!

Js nw my attchmnt was great but one thing happened that kindda spoil my day a bit. My mom was my patient this morn. How great to have my own mom as my patient. hehehe. I was doing my job satisfactorily and trying my very best to display some professionalism. Everything went kindda smooth. Good thing I manage to finish the treatment early. But then I got a scolding with my supervisor for js shooting an ans when he asked me a qn. It's like I know e ans la. But I dunnoe why when he asked me suddenly my mind js went blank and I js shoot anything to ans him la. Then, he said sth like I will fail if that is my ans for my exam. And he said i dun even really noe the basic stuffs. All infront of my mom. Well, he wasn't very offensive but still I feel very bad bout myself. My self-esteem immediately dropped. But luckily, it doesn't drop so much. Still at the survival stage. I'm still positive and I didn't break down. Must have high E.Q. Must have. Must have.

I feel kindda lost contact with e rest of e world esp my sec sch and mcg pals.. I only see my family, my classmates and some few acquitances in sch... N of course my mad's friends every sun.. Oklah. Sumtimes we really have to part for awhile to get some work done. Then later we all shall meet up. I hope my friends are doing great... They say, Jauh-jauh bau wangi, dekat-dekat bau tahi.. Or the othr way round. I'm nt sure la bt it's somewhat like tat. I hope they miss me. hehehe tak tau malu.

Grandmama is at my place. She came over last sun. She'll be going for eye surgery soon and mom offered to take care of her. So she'll be at my place till she has fully recovered. Nice to have her here.

That's all for now. Be happy and take care!:) Remember, Life's not easy but it's worht it!

Sabar itu separuh daripada Iman.
Kalau aku mengaku diri aku sebagai orang yang beriman,
aku mesti belajar bersabar walaupun ianya amat susah.

Rosdahliana

2008-07-22T13:02:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Mad woman tagging random stuffs is a hint to update."

Hello fellow earthlings. Been a while since i last updated. Things have been pretty busy around here coz its almost the end of the semester (yeayness) and as usual, there'll be many projects due as well as the infamous exams. Yes, i have exams. But only 2 modules. Not so bad? Think again. I'm already lost as i am now. Good luck to me in the future.

This is just a quick update. I'll talk more soon.

-KiKi ouTz-
It's.Still.In.A.Hush.Hush.Situation.

2008-07-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
emotional & physical complex

not in the best of spirits the past 24 hours. didn't go to school cos didn't feel like it. one of those days. the weekend wasn't so bad though, watched the dark knight with my cousins. haven't been able to watch good movies in a while. cool movie. visited cuz aiman at the hosp. hope he's all better now. funny thing when we went searching for his ward we found him sitting at starbucks with his friends. lols. that's just like the rest of my cousins. very interesting people. i never really liked hospitable cos it's depressing. good thing i decided not to go into the meds field. not that it's a bad thing but i'm not the sort who'd be able to handle it.

mum had her first day at work after so long of being a housewife. although it's kinda temporary right now, it's good that she's out dg something for herself. so these few months i may hafta cut back some of my time in sch and help her wif my sisters and all. yeap, me and my mission of being a good daughter. :D

suddenly got so sick of school. i think it's the pre-exams nerves. haven't been able to bring myself to start studying. i'm just so worried about not doing well i can't seem to focus on doing it well. i remember telling shumin how sad i was not to be blessed with good looks or intelligence. to think of it i guess i should be thankful that i could look into the mirror without it cracking and at least i can think even though i'm slow sometimes. the injustice may kill me someday if i don't stop myself from thinking all these unnecessary stuffs.

i hope everyone else is doing fine. i'm being a bit self-centered nowadays not realising that perhaps other ppl may have bigger problems than mine. god, i'm so sorry.

hahhs. js remembered fazilah's(my pr sch friend) random msn conversation with me. been a long time since i saw her in sch. i didn't even know she was in sp till sya told me. hahhs. it's too bad we didn't keep in touch during sec sch.

anyways, i'm like addicted to dbsk's new song, どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう? or Why Have I Fallen In Love With You?

beautiful but kinda sad.

それでも君が僕のそば離れていても
永遠に君が幸せでいること
ただ願ってる
たとえそれがどんなに寂しくても（寂しくても）

Soredemo kimi ga boku no soba hanareteite mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo (sabishikute mo)

But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore
I'm praying that you
May be happy for eternity
No matter how much that would make me lonely (no matter how lonely)

somebody ought to tell me not to give up on finding love in everything. it's just too sad i don't have my own stories to tell.

there i go again.
from now on,
happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts,happy thoughts.

2008-07-18T02:16:00.004+08:00

Ros

Heyy world!

Haha. Bumped into Firdaus otw to sch tis morning.. Aaaahhh.. long time no see man. That friend of mine was late for class. His class was supposed to start at 8. But the time we bumped into each othr in the mrt was at ard 8.15. hahahaha. Good old friend. A fun person lah he. hahaha. I remembered one funny thing happened when we were in sec one. We were at MacRitchie Reservoir for NPCC trekking. hahaha. Klakar seyy tat time. Paisey pon ade. Dayana, ingat tk?? hahaha. Kk, sshhhh....

Had my prac exam. haha. Oklah it went fine. I dunnoe hw well I did but I know that's the best I cld give. Let's just wait for the results aite. A bit of stress reduced. But thr's still more to come. In 2 wks time, I'll be having my oral viva exam. And there're really more things coming up very very soon. Plus attchmnts and all. I hope I survive.

Before the prac exam, I had 2hrs of lunch break. But I didn't eat a thing. Except for a bar of BOOST. How to eat?? I was very stress. Lots of adrenalin released in my body. If i force myself to eat, I'll throw up. Met Zura & Tqah and so I just hang ard with them before going for e test.

My dad... He's a family man. I'm lucky enough for he is my dad. Cos not many ppl have a dad like him. He has done alot for me. Since the day I was born till today. But I'm a big gurl now (except that I'm short). I want to learn to do things by myself. I think my siblings shld do the same too. I hate to see my dad doing everything for us. I dun want us to be so depending on him. My dad shld discipline us to do our own stuffs. We are all grown up now. He has done alot already. Working so hard outside to find a living.

I'm struggling with sch now. Dunnoe if I cld cope. I'm just afraid I don't do well and disappoint him. I know he put a high hope on me. He works so hard for me. He's very concern bout my studies. In pri & sec sch, I've always impressed my dad with my good results. But now in poly, I dunnoe... I really don't want to disappoint him. But if I did, I think I'm a ungrateful daughter.

My two MAJOR weaknesses: I'm LAZY and I'm SCARED. I really need to overcome them.

Rosdahliana

2008-07-16T03:37:00.002+08:00

Ros

Hello World!

Oh yea i've not been updating. hehe. so bad of me. i need someone to knock me to update. And now I'm updating at this hour. What am I doing?? Why am i not in bed??

hehe. Life's tough these days. But heyy I'm glad that I'm going thru it with calm and patience. Thank you Allah for help. Putting trust in Him is forever worthwhile. If not, I wld nvr make it this far. I'm weak. And I got all the strength from Him. I feel it's quite of an achievement too. I may not get good results but I'm happy with myself that I'm learning to be patient. Cos I was once a bad-tempered person. Sort of. hehehehe.

Though life's tough these days, I'm happy living it. There're some highlights in my life. I got a good hug from Tqah. Gosh, i miss her! And the rest too. Sorry cos I cnt commit animore and have to withdraw myself. I have a reason for it and I hope ppl respect my decision. And then I bumped into Zura at yck mrt and we took the same train home. Awww... It's been awhile.. I miss going home with her. hehehehe. And then I also bumped into Aisyah, my NPCC senior. As far as i cld remember she was my contigent commander druing Speech Day 04. That time I was in sec two. hahaha. All the hard core trainnings, the sweat and the black faces. Not to forget our pouring out(more to complaining and gossiping) in the girls toilet while changing into mufty when trg's over. hahaha. I miss those episodes of my life. We all did extremely well tat time. The bond we had. And we're really trained to be tip-top cadets. My NPCC girls squad rocks! Awww... i miss those girls..

Okla. Tats all an update bout my life. hahaha. To Dayana: Thanks for knocking. lain kali jgn lupe beri salam. hehehehe.

I'm Making A BIG Shift In Life
I'm Sorry If I Have To Disappoint You
You Can Consider Me Selfish

Rosdahliana

2008-07-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
rainy summer daze & careless words

finally here to update,all in time before somebody legally files a complain. really tired of doing school work, it's such a drag. i think ccs is really a huge load, working our brains off on a daily basis for a mere 3%. of course adding up the whole project is worth 20% but still it's really too much. on the other hand it's really interesting to learn about other cultures. accounts is killing me. i was on the verge of insanity today trying very hard to understand cashflows. i have absolutely no idea what the whole thing is about. i feel so stupid doing accounts in class. everybody else seem to know what they're doing at least they understand some of it. i'm struggling like mad but i don't dare clarify because i felt stupid and dumb enough as it is. it's coming back to me, numerical frustrations. there's noone to blame but myself, for being really really stupid. it's just too bad i'm lacking in many many ways.

i think ppl would have realised i haven't been doing certain obligations. really sorry. i'm just having a hectic phase. but as promised (i don't take my words lightly) i'll try my best and do a good job if not an awesome one. rege and me will be working on our event once we got our dued assignments done. and exams to study for. 3 weeks, man. whoever said year 2 was easy. especially with itp and all. aahh. such a predicament. i have no idea which company to go for. i haven't even edit my resume. tsk. i really hope there's no interviews involved. really.

it's obvious there's some tension within the circle.
not sure what happened in between but as it goes,
friendship is without hurdles and rough patches.
so... clear the air up soon.
or it's gonna be suffocating.

trying so hard to smile through everyday.
laugh like nothing else matters,
but the truth is i haven't lived...
only in daydreams it seems.
wouldn't it be nice to touch people's hearts
even if it means a small gesture.
i haven't done that have i?

extras:
i just realised i miss panic's old sounds. (&i still haven't gt cab's! why?!?)
&singfest!!! why so ex??? (wonders if they need ppl)
miura haruma is added to my list! hahhs. gokusen 3.

2008-07-14T10:51:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"And I sit and wonder, falling under...Get my way or nothing will move on."

Sorry to that someone whom i irritated him like crazy by going around the bush. I knew I was irritating you but being the evil person that I am, I enjoyed irritating you. In fact, I was laughing the whole time. Sorry "little one". And thank you to those who expressed their concern. Thank you very much. I really need it and it is greatly appreciated.

Abang gave me pocket money today. The first time after how-many-years :D and I miss my father :(

Randomness:
1) Irma needs the toilet coz she ate too much chocolate in the morning. HAHAHAHAHA.
2) We just responded to our lecturer "yes" without even knowing what it's for.
3) I waited for Adee to call me to wake me up this morning but she didn't and instead, I woke up on my own -.-" Thanks anyways! :D
4) Shouldn't have slept late just to talk to some people. Results to very lazy morning (lazy to look for what to wear to school and even to pack my bag) and dry eyes. It's not so bad now. But then I enjoyed talking to them.
5) Dayana was such a pro at "evaluating" me yesterday night. "My problem is I don't know what my problem is."
6) I guess her "KNOCK KNOCK" was a sign to update. HAHAHAHA
7) SINGFESTSINGFESTSINGFEST!!! I saw panic's posters! Whoopee! Can I have those posters after Singfest?? PLEASEEEEE :D
8) I got Whisper War!!! Omg. The refreshing sound of good quality music :P

Did i just heard, "Today is the last lecture." ??? Awesome-o! :P

I think that's all. Oi "little one", have you figured out my pm? Go figure. It's still on till I have a new one to replace it.

That's all for now. Later-

Who cares about what I think?
Who cares about what I say?
Who cares about what I do?
Who cares about what I FEEL?
The loved ones care.

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Wanted.To.Take.The.Bus.But.You.Insisted.On.Taking.The.Train.

2008-07-06T00:11:00.011+08:00

Ros

Hello world!

I wanted to update on the 5th july bt i guess i'm a few mins late. It was Dad's burfdae. We didn't go out. Just stayed at home and ordered pizzas. Thought of watching a movie bt then my sister was not around. And we can't go w/o her. Otherwise, she'll get mad. Biaselah anak manje. She went to watch the NDP preview with her school. My uncle was driving his taxi ard my area so he dropped by. Langkah kanan seyy. Datang je dpt mkn pizza.

Had my first patient. We worked in pairs. I was the assistant. But yet I still have a big role to play. Oklah, Alhamdulillah. Things went quite ok. Except for a few blurness. At least no patient die or faint in our dental chair. And the patient is quite tolerant with us. We are all sort of professional but there's still lots to be improved. Really alot!

Hidup Setenang Air

Hiduplah kita setenang yang boleh kerana hidup yang tenang ibarat air yang jernih.

The power of Air Putih

Minum air biasa banyak-banyak, selalu dan sekerap mungkin untuk tenang dan tak kelam-kabut. Air boleh menstabilkan emosi.

The power of Ablution (Wuduk)

Syaitan dibuat daripada api. Api kalau kena air akan padam.

Mandilah selalu supaya sentiasa "Fresh"
Mandi itu sangat penting untuk meletakkan kita pada arus ketenangan.

Motivasi Diri

Penuhkan dada kita dengan motivasi, dengan ilmu, dengan teladan dan pengalaman.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-07-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
adorkable

thought i shall blog while waiting for my yt vids to load. lots been happening i guess since term2 started. think i shall just giv u the highlights for the past 2 weeks, that is if u care to know.

can't remember much of last week but i remembered:

thurs: went for MOP comm dued "thank you" lunch with mr chow at secret recipe. it was an awesome treat..hahhs. must thank mr chow again. lols and we'll be back for MOP 09/10 as advisors i guess? yupps.

fri: had my gems test which wasn't bad cause i studied? think i did good. then headed over to lib where daphne aka donut aka doi was waiting for me and had a few laughs. hah! i finally have a solid reason to make fun of her. doi! i remember having a brief meeting wif the mc regarding agm then aft dat rege & me met up wif shumin, weilin & janet at mobe. rege & me had our first beginners pool lesson by our PTs Janet & W eilin. Lesson 1: Pool Basics. :) was pretty good as a first-timer.

sat: met up wif janet, rege,shumin for the toy & comics convention. really cool. would have gone for the next day's manga cosplay though. that wud hav been awesome.

this week,

mon & tue: accounts is killing me. as usual for nething mathematical, it's not that i don't understand, i always gedit but i always make careless mistakes.urgh, it's so frustrating. it's even more pressurizing when ur classmates are good at it. :(

wed: i think i did well for it test? hahhs. shudn't get my hopes too high. ccs was interesting in a way i guess. correcting english. i love language..maybe i shall major it? hu noes, lol. english is like my 1st language, my malay's still pretty good even though i converse in it lesser now. it's so much better than my sister's cn. she's like hopeless. i even have to help her translate eng words for her karangan. dotts. neways, had our BE AGM that day. full house!!! which was surprising considering we didn't publicise it so much. it was good though i didn't get to eat. hahhs. it's alrite. pioneers helped us a lot, thankful to have them around...keep it up guys!

BE MC O8/09

after AGM, 7 sisters&donut, xiaoba & skye went to swensen's to celebrate janet's 19th birthday.
awesome time. the whole day we've been making her do stupid , embarassing stuffs so that she cn get her presents. lots of cam-horing that night. hehhs =) anyways, zin was working that night. been some time since i saw her.

thurs: woke up late so i skipped morn ccs class. watched a movie again during pr class. this time the movie wasn't that bad. seen half-way only. oohh sharks, suddenly remembered i haven't send in my resume.

fri: missed morn class again today. hahhs. not deliberate okayy. it was just log neways. went to sch for gems. interesting cause we learned about refractive surgery and watched real-life operations. lasik only takes like 5mins per eye. thought of doing it when i'm older but i think otherwise now. scared of complications. had pool lessons again today. (another resolution for the year) like last wk, our PTs taught me & rege but only for a while cause we had a guest tutor in the form of evelyn tan's gabriel soh. hahahhs. thx bro-in-law. good exercise for arms. today we learnt positioning & aiming. still not quite good but it's fun.

i guess that's about it. my highlights.
doi! chris's hair is back to black...aww.platinum blond was awesome.
but still hot.still hot. hahhs.
i'm delusional.
i love my daydreams.

waaaaaahhh~~
i want a new hp!
current one is electronically dying.
:(

2008-07-02T11:58:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Amz told me to talk about the toilet bowl."

Here's what happened: I used the toilet in the hotel room first. When I flushed, it LOOKS like it was about to flood. The next person who used the toilet was Amz. When she flushed the toilet, it literally flooded the toilet AND SHE SHRIEKED LIKE WHAT LA! When the flooding subsided, amz had to use a plastic bag and take out the tissue from the toilet bowl coz we think that it was choked. Well, not much difference after that. Both of us didn't dare to use the toilet anymore.

When amz had thrown away the tissue that she had taken out, i wiped the toilet dry with the help of permy coz Iza was supposed to be "stationed" at the toilet. I didn't want her feet to get wet and dirty the rest of the room.

After painstakingly drying the toilet with lots of tissue paper, i called my dad to tell him about it. He then told me to call the operator in which when my dad arrived, the operator still havent send anyone up yet. My dad arrived with his friend to view the room, being my dad who is always unconvinced, he told his friend to flush the toilet. And guess what? THE TOILET FLOOD LA DURH....and his friend went, "You should listen to your daughter." Yes unconvinced father, LISTEN TO ME. MUAHAHAHA.

So his friend went to tell someone (there were works going on outside our room) who then went to call the plumber who fixed the choked toilet just in time for me to wipe it dry again before the batu-buta (like what dayah said. dayah rite? pls make ur claims. hahahah) came. PHEW!

But then after that Mel used the toilet and it flooded again. So i told them to pee in the bathtub and wash it after that instead.

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
The.Love.The.Bond.The.Trust.

2008-07-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

Ros

Didn't go sch today. My headache was really a severe one. Berdenyut-denyut sey kepale aku.I can't look up or down cos it's very painful. I can't roll my eyes too. Thought of going to sch and take half day leave. But I can't take it. Takot nanti kat skola kepale aku meletop.

Coincidently, one of my relatives passed away today. She's my late grandfather's sister but we're kindda close. Went to her place at Bedok. After lunch, my cuz accompanied me to the nearby polyclinics. Told the doc that I had fever and severe headache. Thought that he wld say that I fall sick cos I'm too stressed up (whc is true. I'm so worried for my prac). But he said I may got dengue and sent me for blood test. HUH?? Terbeliak mate aku bile die ckp cmtu. But hey, Alhamdulillah, I'm fine.

Feeling kindda better. Now I have to swallow panadols. And hopefully I'll get well soon. I missed four hrs of prac today. Haaiiizzz. And I'm left with just nx wk to complete my schedule. I really wanted to go sch today to do as much as I can for my prac. So that I can sit for the test and pass. But still my health and family still come first. Thankfully, things have been compromised for me. I just need to complete some of the significant ones. However, some of my lecturers and supervisors will membebel with me bout my unfinished schedule when I come bck sch. Abeh kalau aku dah takleh angkat, nak uat camne??

And right now, I'm doing this MC thingy on my sch's website. So leceh cos my comp's lagging.

Satu-satu dah pergi tinggalkan duniawi
So who's next??

Rosdahliana

2008-06-30T17:32:00.002+08:00

Ros

aku stress.

pening.

mcm nak pecah kepale aku.

anw, sch has ended. actoli it has ended earlier bt i hv to stay bck to set up my teeth for my prac exam. stress sungguh bout that prac exam. That's one thing. The othr thing is i've gotta finish my class schedule before the exam. Othrwise i cannot sit for it. And i'm stuck sumwhr. I still gt long way to end. :(

suddenly i feel like following my bro go NS. haha. For no reason seyy. Maybe i js miss being in a uniform grp and doing all e physical trg. At least I getto burn some fats. hahahaha.

Tiada siapa yang paling pandai atau paling bodoh dalam dunia ni kerana yang pandai tu boleh jadi bodoh dan yang bodoh tu boleh jadi pandai.

Rosdahliana

2008-06-30T11:22:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"SEJOK LA SEH!! Daaaa aku jadi mcm amz..."

The LT is soo damn cold la! I'm shivering like how amz shivered when we overnight at school during Dinamis. Yes, even tho she wore layers of clothes and i wrapped her up with a towel, she still shivered like what like that. Hahaha. At least now my shivering not so bad.

Anyhoo, last Saturday was a blast Nyahs! Yeay EMON, our plan was a success! Thanks to the batu-bate girls a.k.a. birthday girls for being sporting and dengar kate...LoL! baik anak-anak mak ni semue... (Sidetrack: the LT is really fckng cold till i can't type properly -.-") and thanks to the others who helped out with the decorations and blowing of balloons that were hard to blow and hard to tie. Luckily the balloons turned out into a nice heart shape. Also, thanks to my dad yo! He helped book the hotel room and provided the deliciously awesome chocolate fudge cake! YUMMMAAAAAYYYYY!!!!! Meleleh seh air liur...heheheh..Seeeeddaaaaapppppp! and adee even took a bit of the cake while dayah waa cutting the cake. tk sabar noohhh! apa kan daya, SEDAP LA SEY! hahahaah! the cake ok. not dayaH yang sedap. heheheh

After eating the cake, we had our sharing session. Some of us had to talk fast because someone took up quite a lot of time. hahahha..no hard feelings but bile teringat balek, mcm klaka gitu..hehehe. I can't help it but feel that the more we talk and share, the more i love you gals...aawwwwww...ok let's go pictures!

Chocolate fudge cake!

The preparations...

menyekse tau nk ikat n tiop belon!

Before the b'day girls arrive, ape lagi! take picture! take picture! hahahaha..

The next few pictures are when some of us went to fetch the b'day girls from bugis station to bring them to the surprise location which was the hotel. The girls are then blindfolded after crossing from the raffles hospital. They are then hung "It's our birthday!" sign around their next and are to walk in a single file. What i heard (i waiting at the hotel) was even the tourists were like shouting "happy birthday!" nice tourists they are :D

asked them to blindfold at one point of time.

Carrie at the front coz her b'day comes first.

Iza at the back coz her's was the last among the 4 girls.

Choo choo train!

When the girls reached the hotel, we despatched into different places of the room...

Carrie on the bed...

Iqa on the floor...

Iza in the toilet...

And adee in the closet...heheheeheheee

After the blindfolds were taken off and the remaining of the girls waited outside of the room with the cake, we surprised them and then we took grp pictures! Sadly, yasmin wasn't there with us.. :(

That's all for now! Helluva-long-post. Later!

-KiKi ouTz-
Aku.Sayang.Korang. :D

2008-06-27T11:35:00.002+08:00

Ros

hello world.

suddenly so stress. so short of time. prac exam cuming up soon. and i'm starting on a REAL patient nx sat, whc happens to be on my dad's bdae. so Rosie, no more play2. it's either i buck up nw or leave this world. am considering to sacrifice somethings. i need to focus on my clinical work. really need to. i'm going to deal with a human being. not a doll or a dummy. and i dun wanne get so overwork till i fall sick. my health shall nvr be compromised. that's my stand.

ok. the good part is i did well for all my tests. I gt a B+ and a B. hehehe. Just finished another test early this morning. I didn't study much for it. Though i know i can during the break time. haaiizz.. see lah.. i still lack discipline.

i think we shld all cherish our lives before it's too late to do so. we shld appreciate every single breath. cos we dunnoe that it cld be our last one. Life's too short to be living in the shadow of a lost love. Life's too short for a boring career. Life's just too short for all sorts of misery. So if you dun like anything in your life, get rid of it. (but if u dun like sumone, dun kill him la..) One weakness bout most of us is we're too afraid to do so. We dunnoe we have the right. We dare not show the world who we really are. We are what they dun see. We care so much bout wat ppl will think bout us. At last, we hide in our own shadows.

If the dead cld, it will plead to return to the world for another life. What the living is doing is wasting away ther lives.

Lihatlah alam
Lihatlah dirimu
Sungguh indah
Maha Bijaksana si Pencipta

Rosdahliana

2008-06-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
it's either laughter or tears with no in-between

yeap. finally back in school.unfortunately i feel academically depressed. i should be thankful that i passed all my papers but still i can't help but be hard on myself. a lot of things went through my mind every time i get a paper back. i can't stand looking at my results. my personality is the kind whereby the more disappointed i am with myself the harder i beat myself about it. it's even more depressing when i know the cause of my disappointment. the more disappointed i get the higher the tendency for me to give up. i really hate it. should really change my attitude. or perhaps i'm not smart enough, not cut out for it. i keep having all these high self-expectations i can't keep. is there really any use of an aim then?

on a more positive note, i'm glad to be back in the company of my peeps esp my sisters. like seriously. everyday's a better day because of their lame jokes and laughter. now, school is more of having fun with the peeps rather than on academics. aahh. my heck-care mode. oops.

had an interesting time during the dialogue session with the mc. hahhs. we're really one bunch of distorted ppl who loves to hang around buffet tables. seriously. oh, and the girls in mc can't stop "singing praises of how gentlemanly our club guys are". must thank the guys for leaving the door closing on us. lols. on the other hand, they're protective sometimes i guess. not very often. hahhs.

oh, saw rosie early in the morning today. sorry ah tk dengar,telinga pekak tgh dgr mp3. hahhs. ape kau buat seh naik green line pagi2? hahhs. i just wrote in malay. wahahhhahhhs. anyways, fyi i'm learning mandarin frm sisters. hahs, this morning alone i got scolded by shumin for nt bringing my hw which i diligently did but did not brg. will be watching fated to love you and brown sugar machiatto 2mrw,hahhs crash lessons. i'm bent on picking up new languages because i can excel in language rather than other academics, linguistic i guess.

hahhs. was watching a korean reality show and i cried watching it. hahhs,interesting. it's not easy for me to cry watching movies and stuffs. hmm.interesting.

below is the class pic, tho incomplete taken at clarke quay.
it was fun tho the ice cream man was weird.lols :)

you know you wanna do the shuffle like battle. hehhs =P

i guess it is hard being alone.
but i know it's never true.
-smiling eyes&charming smiles is many dreams away-

2008-06-23T14:03:00.003+08:00

Ros

Heyy world..! Yea sch starts today. Like sumone, I OSO DUN WANNE GO BACK SCH. My lect asked me once," How's hols? Are u happy to be bck in sch?" I said, "No." And he replied," Then why come back?" Ouh really?? I can choose not to come bck huh??!

My throat felt tight tis morn. And my body felt feverish. Some of my classmates were having flu when I met them during attachmnt last Sat n my bro was down with high fever 2 days ago. Must've got it from them. Thought of taking MC today. If not for practicals and LA audition, I pon sch oredi. Sumtimes I dunnoe hw to differentiate whtr i'm sick or js plain lazy. So I skip sch when I'm lazy and I go sch when I'm actually sick.

I've been living my life aimlessly for more than a yr. ouh man, what will become of me?? I need more boosters. I really need more reinforcements. I'm not very committed in poly, both academic & non-academic. And I still miss my sec sch. Saat-saat remaja yang terindah tak bisa terulang. This shldn't be happening la. This sucks man. I want to move forward in life.

But wateva it is, I've achieved most of the things tat i wanted during the short break. My room is neater than ever nw. haha. Actoli it's ok(for me)to hv a messy room as long as it's hygienic. That means I dun sleep with cockroaches and rodents at nite. I did find some boosters in life bt I need more. And I achieved sth today oso. I came early on a Monday morn. I'm oways late u know on Mon. hehe. I'm on-the-dot kid. It's either I arrived js in time or I'm late. Seldom earlier. haha.

ok tats all. bye! Have a nice day in sch everyone!

maybe it's just a matter of time.
ok, shall not lose faith.
here i am. sucking strepsils to soothe my throat.
Rosdahliana

2008-06-22T16:57:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"BESOK SKOLA LA SEY!"

Ahh. Alas, school starts tomorrow. Happy schooling students and happy working teachers/lecturers. I DON'T WANNA GO BACK SCHOOL!! Well actually, i do wanna go back just so i can meet my friends after a whole week of not seeing them. Gosh. I didn't know i would miss them like crazy. And especially after dinamis, in which everyone is missing. Gaahhh....

Nothing much to do today except procrastinate, laze around and then stress myself up for procrastinating. Muahahaha..Twisted..I know. I just don't wanna do anything school related. I don't know why. I wanna go shopping but i ain't got cash and then i have to save up like $300 for Singfest. Baaaahhhh...WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THAT EXPENSIVE??? You can say it's worth it for a 20-hour performance (split into 2 days and so its 10 hours each day) but hey, I AM A STUDENT YO. I DON'T EARN ANY INCOME. @#@$#!?

Anyhoo, i got my laptop back but it sucked big time coz i can't surf the internet or go online msn at all. Funny thing is that my airport says that it is connected but i can't surf and go online. Like WTF seh. RAAARRR!!!

I'm still waiting for my classmates' reply but they haven't and i'm like "How the hell am i supposed to help if you don't tell me if that's what you need or not and all i asked was to check if my message is appropriate enough to be sent to our guest." Sheesh. And then somehow i get the feeling that in the near future they are going to blame me if things go wrong. Knncb.

Ok so this post ends up with me ranting. Sorry mates. Seems like i haven't rant for a long time, no? Hehehehehehe. Oh and to those who came and watched Dinamis, thank you soooooo much for your support! (i know..da seminggu baru nk ckp. Sorry dong. Hehehehehe)

If no one wants to put an end to it now, then who will?

That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Can't.Wait.For.The.28.June.2008.
Celebrate like crazy. Muahahaha.

2008-06-21T15:01:00.003+08:00

Hey World!

Smile, smile, smile... :)

I wld like to share two motivational quotes that I found in the net. They have deep meanings and they set me thinking when I first read it. What bout you?

Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.
Talent will not, nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.
Genius will not, unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
Education will not, the world is full of educated derelicts. - Calvin Coolidge

Spiritual force is stronger than any material force
that thought rule the world. - Unknown

For fun, laughter, peace & happiness
Rosdahliana

2008-06-20T17:22:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
perceived perfection

obviously i haven't upated for ages so here i am. not much during the hols. a few mc meetings here and there. some family time and a lot of slacking. ppl been telling me i looked stress. they should stop telling me that. i'm just caught up in my own personal odysseys that's all. getting rid of old habits, working on new ones, the norm. I AM NOT STRESSED. my face is naturally expressionless cn. if it's not that then i'm just really tired because recently i can't sleep well. hmmph. not that anyone cares but whatever. not looking forward to school though i'm missing my 03 sisters. they make everything bearable :)

term 2= events = itp worries = exam worries.

so prepared for more mental and physical breakdown. not that it isn't enough already but wth.

hahhs.

funny just thinking about a statement i said to nobody.

2008-06-18T13:02:00.008+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Have you waited long?"

Ok. Fine. The least i could do is update something. I don't know where to get them pictures and i don't know if anyone dared to take any...ok wait. Dayak did. I think. Hehe...I don't even have that much pictures with me. Only one with the bastard who laughed at me when i had only the base make up on. -.-" Thanks ehh...Hahahhaha

Anyhoo, alhamdullillah Dinamis Seni 2008 went well. Yeay! Thank god i didn't screw up. Unfortunately tho i became a "rockstar" after that coz i lost my voice. Hahahahha. Still coughing up till now. Irma called a while ago and she asked, "Asal suare kau maseh sexy eh?" Wt-? sexy keperrr...hahahahha..naseb yazid kt sebelah tk jealous. LOL

Ok. I'm trying to cope pictures from people..let's seee...i wanted to take from Dayak's blog tapi mcm BESAR gitu la gambar die and tk le right click on the small picture...oh well..Ok i got one. THis one made me laugh..World, welcome the gay boys of MCC! XD HAHAHAHAHA

This one is before the performance at the other LT

Muke addict siol aku...

She look at me, i look at who?

Sempat amek gambar time tgh set rambut...mane badan aku???

Me and saf before make-up...

Did Nigel kiss the sponge??hahahahaaa...

Me and iza during rehearsal

Ok so there were more photos of the gay boys. HAHAHAHA..if u wanna view them, go to Saf's multiply. pandai-pandai carik..muahahahahahha

I gotta go. Uploading pictures took up shitloads of time. I gotta go get ready for consultation later...blaaaaaaa

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-

The.Shocking.Aftermath.

2008-06-17T11:41:00.003+08:00

Ouh Rosie, Rosie...

A week has passed. haha. I've not been doing much things la. Last wk I had guests at home. So I had to entertain them. My relatives came over to see my bro before he reported for his NS. Today's his fourth day oredi. Hope he's doing fine.

Then on wkends I had to attend my cuz's wedding. We spent the whole day thr. I wasn't happy cos alot of time has been taken away from me. And I now I've left with little time to do my stuffs. But in the end I think it's alright la. Cos we don't oways get to meet up and do things together as one huge family. All makciks, pakciks, abgs, adiks, kakaks getting together. Rewangs, chit-chats and karaoke. Kecohh! Think it's kindda fun. It makes the family bond stronger.

Ouh yea, Kiki says Hi and she'll update as soon as she can. hehehe.

Kalau besar yg dituntut dan mulia yg dicari, nescaya banyaklah kepayahan dan kesusahan melaluinya, panjang jalannya dan banyak rintangannya. - Imam Al-Ghazali

Rosdahliana
u dunnoe wats bn gg on in my mind

2008-06-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

I am currently waiting for my baju to be distributed. Hehehehehhe...Meanwhile, just a reminder,

NP's MCC
Dinamis Seni 2008: Mendongak Ke Langit
LT 26
Saturday, 14 June 2008 @ 8p.m.

See ya there. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Am.Surrounded.By.Crazy.People.

2008-06-11T09:11:00.005+08:00

Ros

Good morning everybody...!

hahas.

Yest went cycling at ECP with Dayana & Jalilah. Sadly, the othrs weren't able to make it so only three of us were thr. haha. Bt we still had fun.:) We kindda explore the whole ECP. We didnt know that ECP was that big. Finally, I can ride a bike. haha. It's an achievement beb..

Kite pancing tau..hehe. Mcm phm..

Can you see us???

Our catch..hehe.

Tat's all.. Gdbye!!
Wont Go Home Without You - Maroom 5

Rosdahliana

2008-06-10T10:24:00.007+08:00

Ros

Hello everyone. At last I gt hold of the comp. My bro has been using it and nt giving me a chance to surf the net. So hw's everyone?? Good, i hope. And happie hols..! hehehe...

Umpama Mimpi Dalam Mimpi by Damastura

Kenangan bersamamu kasih
Seumpama mimpi di dalam mimpi
Terasa engkau di sisi
Menemaniku saban hari

Pabila kupejamkan mata
Akan terasa hangatnya asmara
Walaupun sekian lama
Telah terpadam cinta kita

Luka yang tak terasa
Mengalir darah yang tak berwarna
Bagai jeritan tanpa
Suara

Tangisan dalam ketawa
Sedu sedan menjadi syair cinta
Terasa ingin ku sentuh
Bayanganmu

Walau hanya seketika cuma
Agar hilang rindu dan dahaga
Agar pulih semangat kasih dan mesra
Seperti baru kenal cinta

Kenangan bersamamu kasih
Membakar gedung fikiranku kini
Terasa hidupku ini
Umpama mimpi dalam mimpi

Umpama mimpi dalam mimpi

Umpama Mimpi Dalam Mimpi - Damasutra

Rosdahliana
When u're stress, blow bubbles wimme.
We'll hv fun together aite.

2008-06-06T14:25:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

Something's going on but I don't know what it is.

I guess i'm not supposed to know. But whatever.

1 week of no training allowed me to breathe. I feel so relieved. It's not that i don't like seeing you people but hey, i'm sure everyone of us need to take a breather once in a while. I feel a bit refreshed so i don't know how i'm gonna be when trainings resume next week, everyday from 5.30 pm onwards. And i heard heatwave is having a boot camp during that week too. I don't know what's gonna happen.

Anyhoo, i'm at starbucks right now. Supposed to be doing my field assignment thingy but i really don't feel like interviewing anyone. I just wanna stop caring about school this break but alas, there's all these assignments and stuff. God, give me the strength that i need. Amin.

That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Want.It.To.Stop.But.It.Keeps.Coming.Back.

2008-06-05T00:18:00.004+08:00

.amalyna.
save the day with your smile

today, in fact yesterday was pretty awesome. i haven't smiled & laughed so much for some time now and i glad it was yesterday. loved sitting in the mc meeting yest even if it was for 4 hours. really fruitful and fun at the same time. thx for the laughter mcomm! let's work hard together with our sub-comm, aye? look forward to a fresh direction! oh man, shiffa's company was awesome yest! omg, she's crazy lahhh. hahhs. yeahh, finally had my yong tau foo and sweettalk milk tea after weeks of craving. hahhs...felt uber good gg dinner together as a grp. be club is a mental institution. i got sucked in the insane chaos. tsk!argh. i'm currently having a horrible breakout. evil hormones. perhaps i shall be a good girl, listen to daddy and go see that dermatologist. been putting it off for months. maybe i shud oso go to the hospital and do a full checkup or something. i don't feel physically fit, maybe i have low iron or something. hmmph. i hate gg to see doctors,whatever kinds they are. intend to work on my physical being. i haven't been doing nething spiritually either which is kinda bad. zoning out every now and then. so many things to think about my mind just auto-shutdown sometimes. random but i think i shall spend the day cleaning up the awful mess my sis left me with. urgh, i hate sharing rooms. it was so much neater when i had it to myself. irritating. if only i could throw everything of hers out. evil but i'm so frustrated of clearing up other ppl's mess. hate it, it's the same with werk too. but even if i hate it sometimes u just hafta which sucks even more. it's like i can clean my own mess why can't u do the same? effing irritating i tell you. the clutter is driving me crazy and ruining my everyday mood. hate it how they always depend on me. makes me really wanna move away.

anyways, hopefully today will be a better day. not stressing abt the nite project. not gonna. hahhs. like real. will see.

it was never truly gone.

seems impossible.

one of those deep impressions that'll never leave you....

kinda crazy but i replay replay replay.

i-a-m-s-u-c-h-a-N-O-O-B!

2008-06-03T13:00:00.003+08:00

Ros

Lunch break. Not gg lunch. Not hungry.

i had a weird dream last nite. i was with them in my dream. and i saw my name written on the table infront of him.

i forgot that i was drinking hot milo. i just sipped it up. and i burnt my tongue. OUCH!

i miss her. and her siblings too. it's been a while since we last met. nvm. shall meet up during the hols.

woohoo..!! hols cuming.. bt hv to study for my 2 icas first..

they say do not be afraid. do not get demoralised with the ppl ard you. they had problems. but that doesn't mean you'll hv the same probs as them. we are all made different. and we have different lives.

Rosdahliana
and i can't stop grinning behind my mask. hehe.

2008-06-02T15:07:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.
"The forgotten someone got an honorable mention the last time. What about this time round?"
On Saturday, before i went for dikir training, i went to accompany irma to the apple center to fix her macky coz she dropped it a few weeks ago and then it lagged like crazy when you switched it on. When it was our turn to get her macky checked, the lady said that she had to reinstall the software that's all. Aku pikir mane peh serious la tadi... I guess my turn to send macky for service next. The screen has been blinking like crazy. The worst was last Friday. But it's not blinking now. Dunno why. Crazy macky.

Anyhoo, on the way to the apple center, i met NINSY!!! Weeeeee~ Long time no hap see and then i finally see her! HAHAHAHA...gilaaa....after apple center, we went to school for dikir. After dikir, we dressed up and head over for our Nyahs Outing @ Esplanade.

The restaurant we went to was SourPuss. The food was nice but the service was bad. It's ironic but it happened. What happened was when we reached there, we said, "We reserved tables for 12?" Then the guy was like, "Err..12? I didn't see the number on the list (something like this)." But we still got our table tho coz the place wasn't crowded at all.

The setting was an outdoor dining kinda concept. I forgot the name for it. As we sat down, the guy was arranging the tables for us. He lifted up a table and without realising it, the bottom part of the table (which was metal) got chopped off by the spinning fan which was above us. The metal parts flew to certain places and one of them hit irma. It almost hit amz head. Like what the hell rite?? Then the manager came and like, "Thank god nobody got hurt..." and then carried on telling us about the menu. Apologies? Nope. Don't think so.

And then we proceed in ordering our food. When most of us got our food, the waiter came back and said that permy's order was not available. Like what the hell sia...Waited for so long then come back and say don't have. Then summore no ice water but must buy the mineral water. WTF sial.

Then when we want to pay, we asked for a student discount. The guy went to ask the manager or whoever the fuck she is. Then she said no. Like cibai sia. So unfair la. After all those bad experience the least they could do is give us discount. I don't think the manager even care about the customer's welfare. All they cared about is pushing their products. One example would be the guy said that the laksa (which was the cheapest and ordered by 3 or 4 of us) is not their strongest item on the menu when it is actually fucking good la!

SO ladies and gentlemen, up to you people to decide if you wanna go there coz irma went there before us and she said that the service was better. Way better.

After dinner, went for girl talks. Sat in a certain and each and everyone of us tell each other about our stories. Unfortunately, they had to skip me coz i was on the phone with my dad. After the last person said her piece (except me), they all had to rush home coz it was late for some of us. So i just kept quiet coz i don't want to hold them any longer. So yeah...maybe next time. Or maybe you'll hear bits and pieces.

Actually, i typed out a fucking long post yesterday and then my firefox hanged. -_-" Wasted sial. June is here and i most certainly hope that my mood stays pleasant. Thank you for hearing me out. I still have lots of stuff to tell you.

That's all i have for now. Happy holidays. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
A.Story.Left.Untold.But.My.Lips.Are.Sealed.

2008-06-01T15:56:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
the light you emit, might even light a star

hello! hello! i'm sure all of you have been waiting for my return. lollol. well, this is what i hafta say:

MST'S (somewhat) OVER BABES!

hahs. and i have a private partay in my head! you can only wish you're invited. all that's left is IT test 2mrw but i already sealed my fate with any IT mods. suck at it. i'll just hire pros to do the work in the future. jk. i'm not THAT rich. not yet anyways ;) wait till i have a listed company.

the papers were okay. i think. i couldn't do as well as i wanted. goodness, i just figured i have a very bad memory. i'm even bad at names now. need to do something about that. LSO & PR was passable. totally screwed CCS & ECM..which is horrible cos both are my fave mods this sem. lucky accounts was do-able. i was happily doing the income statements...hahs gd thing for that qn cos i wouldn't survive with only theory based qns. i hate theory! that's just because i'm a practical person. anyways, MST over so shall slack during hols! at least get ready for disappointments. like always, like always.

things to do during the hols:
- seek some sort of retail therapy (may or may not involve cash)
- watch 3 weeks worth of k & j dramas.
- room makeover (somewhat)
- just plain slacking

hahhs. i feel so ambitious.

these few days, i've been burdened by this feeling of being indebted to the ppl ard me.
it's nice to have ppl care for me and treating me well, but it makes feel guilty and more insecure than i already am. i cannot give others much because i have nothing but my presence. it troubles me that i cnnt repay all these awesome ppl i have. i hope one day they receive all the kindness and happiness they cn get :) don't treat me so well. i cannot help but feel guilty.

on a happier note:
ENJOY THE VACATION!

a small promise,
in this ever changing world,
we'll hold hands and move on
even in all the painful situations.

you know you miss me.
xoxo
hahs, used ur line skye!

2008-05-30T16:42:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Spanish was fun but it's over :("

AAAHHH!!! Today was the last Spanish class.. Aww..and...yeay! HHAHAAHA..Both sad and happy. Sad coz there's no more Antonio and that i won't be in the same class as Dayah. (awwww..) Happy coz i have 1 less module to worry about and i can focus on my core modules. Good luck bebeh!

TGIF! Yes, thank god it's Friday. Been looking forward to this weekend even though i'll prolly have many stuff to do ahead of me. Oh well. Things been going well so far. PLEASE STAY THAT WAY!!!

I think that this semester is a bit calm (except for the lit review for MRM) coz people are procrastinating less. Good job people! Kudos! Bien! Muy bien! Even Irma is not so stressed (stress dalam hati..oh wait, that's me. Irma stress bising siol. "Ki, kau tk stress ke? Aku nak kasi kau stress ni!") Both dayah and irma are beside me and they were arguing on how irma said it. Dayah aced it! HAHAHAHA.

Academics aside. The production that we're working is around the corner. No trainings next week coz its common test week. YEAY! It's very tiring sia...and there are times when we end real late till i decided to skip class next day. Nyehehehehe...

Time for crazy pictures! Dayah, Me and Irma :DD We laughed like crazy sia! Tired of laughing. -breathes in and out-

check out my angelilna jolie lips! LoL!

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
I.May.Have.Faked.It.

2008-05-30T14:19:00.006+08:00

Assalaamua'laikum... hehehe. Hello semua..!! Dah lame Ros tk update blog ekh.. Lebih kurang dah seminggu gitu.. Wani pon dah sound, " Ekh ko dah lame ekh tk update blog.." hehehe. Alah baru satu minggu.. Belom lagi satu bulan ke, satu tahon ke, satu abad ke, satu kurun ke.... hehehe. Alah Ros penat la skrg.. Almost everyday balek pkol 6 tau.. Smpai rumah pkol 8.. Bile dah smpai rumah, All I Can Think Of Is Sleep.. Even nak makan pon aku dah tk larat.. Apelagi nak on comp.. Sorielah aku nie tk pkai lappy.. hehe. Kdg2 lepas solat dgn telekong2 skali aku tido.. Imagine masok bilek gelap nmpak org pkai telekong ngh tido.. hehehe.. Mak aku slalu bising, " Nak tido, tido lah btol2.." Tapi can't help it ar babe.. Penat dong...

Nari aku tk skola.. best kn?? best kn?? hahahas. Tu psl aku ngh online skrg.. Tapi aku kene blaja.. Gt two tests nx wk.. Okay la.. I've been coping well wif sch.. Cume kdg2 aku blurr mcm sotong.. And i do not like it at times when I'm so belo.. Okay, for that, I must discipline myself to be alert and read my notes and know wat to expect so that I won't be so blurr.. Classmates aku pon okay la (Walaupon aku maseh tetap binget bile dorg bebual cine depan aku).. Kite slalu bebual mepek.. hehehehe. Lagi2 Hafiz.. Mengarot sak lu bro.. And I was known as The Lady In Pink in class... And they call me RRrrrrrrrrrrooooooosss.... (Nk kene drag R and O panjang2 mcm mrt).. Ni sume lecturer aku punye psl.. Die yg start..

Oooppss! I did it again.. Twice yest.. How can I avoid those hands??? I dun want them to feel rejected and misunderstood me. But I believe that's not our culture. And I don't see our parents doing that. Hmmm.. I must learn how to reject those hands politely and I hope they understand. Just a smile and a simple hello or goodbye will do. Nice and simple. No need to shake hands cn??

Hmmm... aku tk tau knape ekh tibe2 je our friendship turned very cold.. Aku tau aku ade salah kt korg.. Tapi I've done my part apologising.. And you said it's ok but then why r you still giving me a cold shoulder?? And we do not talk alot like normal.. Kalo ade salah laen yg aku buat, bilang lah aku.. Tak suke la cold shoulder cold shoulder ni sume.. Don't put me in a tense situation cos that's when I'll lose my cheerful side..

I love my mother..! Yest, chit-chatted with her and she shared with me her experience when she had bro and me.. Actually, aku dah bnyk kali dgr crite mak aku tu.. Tapi aku tetap suke dgr.. Mcm best ar.. Bnyk pengaran.. It wasn't a very pleasant experience for her but she got thru it successfully... My mom is a hero!! And I regret for times when I disrepect her.. hehe. Biaselahh tu....

And aku rindu korg............

Oklah.. Stop kat sini ekh.. Nx time continue lagi.. Sorie ekh bahase aku yg rojak nie.. Sume take care ekh... A.kum...!!!

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-05-27T14:40:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"I had a dream and Hanisah was in it. Wt-?"

I was watching Supernatural the other night and i was laughing watching it. People always say "Isn't it a scary show? Why are you laughing at it?" Well that's coz some of the parts are funny. No kidding. One example would be the brothers were in jail and then Dean was having fun in there. Literally. Trust me, the "brothers" really are great actors. Awesome-o.

Anyhoo, i came up with a theme for the month of May. That would be "Mean May" coz i've been thinking (since when did i stop thinking ayways) that i've been mean to almost everybody. It could be some kind of destress coz really, i'll either ignore that person or look really uninterested at them and snapped at almost everybody. Please lah people. I need to breathe. The month is almost up and my mood seems to get better. For now at least.

I am doing some project stuff and i saw ninsy's pm. It states: this is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world. I was like "OMG!! I love that song! It's a classic!" I used to hear it again and again and again when i was like younger. Like around...13? 14? whoa. Now i'm hooked! :D

Nine Days - Absolutely (Story of a Girl)

My say:
1) I can't say "random thoughts" now coz someone followed my format before. So i gotta change it somehow. Geez. Can't they find their own style or something? Tsk.
2) Pray that my mood gets better.
3) Stop trying to say that you're doing me a favour when i didn't ask for it and then claim that i owe you. Insincere bastard.

That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Absolutely.Love.Her.When.She.SMILES =D

2008-05-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
not on friendly terms with chaos

hmm. week was a blast. really. went by so fast i hardly experienced anything. maybe some crazy hilarious moments like singing the beijing olympic theme song. hahs. don't ask. i wouldn't say i'm stressed out cos i'm really not. well, not yet. been doing revisions for all the mods. realised i haven't really been paying attention in class. not that it affects much since evrything is inside the notes. only problem is how to remember all the points. anyways must buck up!

lots to do besides revision. stuffs like dued tutorials, club stuffs & more club stuffs. i'm starting to doubt my own capabilities. whats more with itp coming up, i wonder if i cn make it in the industry. i haven't even update my resume (pronounced as rare-zzeu-may). bz bz. as much as i'd like a rest, a break might kill me. the body needs to adjust to my recent more active routines.

had a nice dinner with the clb peeps yest at wcp. thanks to kyle, feroz, zara & ky for planning and all. appreciate it! :) would have liked to stay for a bit more but i was too tired & anyways i had to be hm by 11. hahhs. great to have xav's and leehan's company! missed chatting with them ever since foc over.lol. ohh, thx skye, aishah (& shafiq, lol) for seeing me off. even though i'm supposed to see shah & skye v often i still miss spending time with them. still remember the time i intro the both of them more than a year ago. hahhs. hope that we cn hang more often again yea?

these past few days been feeling like a loose thread. like i don't really fit anywhere. sad but i guess everyone feel that way sometimes. getting more emotional nowadays. part of growing up? hmmph. it's awkward sometimes. i see changes everywhere. & so we're moving along.

I tried to get up their minds, to worry about love and never about time. - unknown.

i felt it again after so long.
forgotten emotion.
i wanted to know if it was all so true,
so deliberate?
after all, perhaps not.
cos i know what's at stake.

2008-05-22T15:59:00.005+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"My ears are ready, anytime, anywhere."

You're not alone babe. You may feel like you've lost some spirit in you coz you most probably set your expectations a bit too high? Try to pull the bar down a bit and maybe you'll feel better. Or just take a breather. I think i need to take a breather too. Too much have been going on lately and i seriously need a time-out. Irma says "Have a Kit-Kat." Kit-Kat WAK LU! I just wanna go out and shop. It's been long since i got myself some new clothes or really just window shop. Irma says "Irma agrees too." Irma gile.

Anyhoo, Irma and I will be going to the opening of the arts fest this weekend. We HAVE to go coz our grades depends on it. We gotta write up an article about it. Gaaaahhh... I hope i can enjoy myself there. I really think i need a breathe of fresh air. And maybe a new hair and wardrobe. MUAHAHAHA! (no link sia)

Moving on, i must say that i haven't been happy much lately coz
1) I miss my old mates
2) Some people are just getting annoying by the day
3) Some people tried to act like they understand and know me but they don't. Stop it can?
4) I seriously need a breath of fresh air. Maybe more.

Iza just walked past and Irma said "She looked so CHEENA with a body of a Malay girl." WT-?

That's all for now. Gotta go. Later-

Threw an old line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream...

Will i ever catch one?

-KiKi ouTz-
Can.I.?.

2008-05-22T14:17:00.002+08:00

Can my days get any worse than this???

Honestly, wat will become of me???

When a task is given to me, I wld oways try to get it done with my very best effort..

I am trying to make my life meaningful...

I dun wanne waste my life away js like tat...

But I dunnoe why things aren't working...

In the end, no matter hw hard I try, things oways get screwed up..

Wat's wrong with me???????????????????????????

i need a listening ear. wld u be thr for me??

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-05-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

And there she goes...

Ros, takmo malas ekh....!!!!!!!

hehehe..... Virus malas itu ada pada semua org. Tetapi kita harus berusaha untuk melawannya. The wise one says.

Today no sch.. Best huh?? Supposed to go out with the gang.. May babies celebrtn.. But they cancelled it last min due to some reasons. And so I spent the whole day at home. Settling my scholarship documents whc is due tmrw. A bit stress la. Cos gt lots of things to settle & very little time given. Still waiting for Mr Faizal's response. Ouh well, he agreed to be my referee for my scholarship applicatn & nw I'm waiting for him to email my testi.

Had madrasa exam yest. Fiqh & Tafsir exam.. hahaha. Do-able... Nx wk last paper & last day. And then sem break.. :) Bt then I gt some hafalan. I hv 9 surahs to hafal by tis sun. Hopefully, I can la.. hehe. Only me taking the hafalan. It's supposed to be optional bt then I accidentally tick on the box. hehe. Takpelah.. Amek je.. Tkn nk cancel plak kn..

Went to Pulau Tekong last wed.. Buat ape ekh gi Tekong?? For my n.e (National Edu) trip.. hahaha.. Sight-seeing the army hunks. haha. Act the army campsite doesn't look so bad la.. Mcm skola adelah.. Well, we gt to sneak into their bunks & I see they hv comfortable beds to lie on.. They oso hv so-called lounge for them to play games n relax.. Cool huh.. We oso gt to taste army food.. They don't eat dog food. They hv spaghetti, fries, burgers, terriyaki.. hehe. Nice kn?? And the best part is we gt to fire their rifle.. Hmm.. not the real rifle la.. The one they use to practise their firing. I love shooting!! Weeee.... Considering myself to join the army.. hehehehehe. Why not???

Sebutkan namaku di hatimu....

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-05-16T21:56:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
my mind wandered and never came back

i don't remember much of whatever happened within this week. all i know that i'm still pretty much unwell. sucks man. oh well~ missed school today. not much of a loss since it's only log. thought of going for gems at first but was seriously drained. school is really wearing me out. which is why i've been kinda missing every now &then.

some of us still feeling the gloom. i wonder why? lols. perhaps maybe cos we had too much fun last yr we couldn't top it this year. hahhs. shud do something fun soon. can't wait for hols. well, before that gotta mug. aww. tis the season to be mugging. eff. where did all the fun go?

my 03 sisters are loved! :D
i miss them seriously. hope they all have fun tonight.

i miss my other 'sisters' too!
dayak, kiki, rosieeeeeee!!!!
need to cyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

talking abt sisters, gotta get something for kid sis.
itching to shop :)

oh man.
i just gt this sudden craving for chocolate ice cream.
would you get it for me?
i'd love you to bits.

and that's it for now.
missed me already?
:D
until then laugh at the confusion,live for the moment.

2008-05-14T12:09:00.003+08:00

*EDITED
Ki.Qi.Lah.

DINAMIS SENI '08
-Mendongak Ke Langit-
walau sejengkal, segunung disemai

Ngee Ann Polytechnic's very own Malay Cultural Club; XPDTari (dance), SriNadi (drama), Cendekiawan (language) and Paduka & Adiratna (dikir barat) brings to you 'Mendongak Ke Langit: walau sejengkal, segunung disemai'. A production that evolves around a
Malay boy growing up in a conventional Malay community of Singapore in the 1960s. Bearing his mother’s words of wisdom in mind, we see not only the choices he made but also the ups and downs faced by the Malay society in a more artistic way yet comprehensible for the general audience.

We hope that with this production, we will be able to promote greater awareness of the Malay culture, thus instilling social and moral values for youths like us to be a more active and responsible
individual towards the community and also to our own elderly family members.

COME ON! Gather your families and friends and experience the promising and colourful performances that's filled with artistic value.

TIKET: $6
14TH JUNE 2008, ~~6.30PM~~
NOW @ A NEW TIME SLOT 8PM
CULTURAL THEATRE, LT 26 @ NP

BOOK YOUR TICKETS NOW!

For sale of tickets and general enquiries, please contact Reza Fahmi @ 91110876 or Diana @ 97814665

(nak tanye aku pon boley..heeee ;P)

-KiKi ouTz-
Do.Support.Us.

2008-05-13T16:25:00.003+08:00

Ros

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON...It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. The, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

Sometimes they die.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Your need has been answered, and now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON...It is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Rosdahliana

petite.

2008-05-10T02:11:00.004+08:00

.amalyna.
and then she goes unnoticed.yet again.

i noe it's like 2 plus now and i'm still awake. must be because i've had too much sleep the past few nights. or maybe because i'm still full from the buffet. hahhs. dad brought the family to sakura for a mummy's day treat. me and sis supposed to chip in & we did by saying " put it on my daddy's tab." thanks daddy :) anyways, ate lots and i'm glad i starved for it. my fave dish was the grilled salmon. too bad i ate it all before i took a picture of it. hahhs. my bad. anyways, family time is great. minus all the chaos & mindless squabbles. it's great neways.

itadakimasu!

another dumb sister act.

daddy looks kinda evil-ish here. lawls.

not much to tell about yesterday except i made 4 new friends in gems class. hahs. hey, it took some kind of an effort okayy. lawls. it wasn't an awesome day but i'm still thankful. i still have god on my side so it already make things better :) i miss the rain. i've always believed that rain is a sign of blessing from god. so far it's only proven me right. blessings is really what i need now. i wanna walk in the rain again. even if it means walking through it alone. again. =/

edited:
it rained at 0322h.
blessed!
but still need that walk-thru. =P

i soo envy marie digby! she's awesome in singing and playing the guitar...plus she's really pretty (frm a girl's point of view). it'll be great to have some or all of those talents (in-born or otherwise) , i have neither. sad for me. i'm beginning to pity myself. anyways, she's one talented singer, i want her album. i soo have to pick up the guitar. (well, and actually learn how to play.) she lacks of motivation. &lack of a tutor.

i'll be missing every now and then. not that anyone would care. but if by some one-in-a-million chance that someone would miss me, feel free to call me up at you-know-what's-the-number. i'll be having some kit-kats. every now & then.

I just can't belong
to anybody else right now
though it is not much of an excuse
I can't belong
to anybody else when I've got
so much figuring out to do
-girlfriend,marie digby

even a room full of people can feel so empty.
something's lost.

2008-05-09T11:23:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"I'm supposed to end at 12 but i end at 11 instead. :DD"

IT'S FRIDAY PEOPLE!!! FINALLY LAHHHH...Week 4 has been a VERY tiring week for me. I feel lethargic every time i get home. I don't know why. Even on days when i don't have to attend for CCA, i still feel tired. And then when i get home early, soon after that i go to bed. But i don't think i'm the only one though. I can sense that other members of MCC are very tired too. Come on guys. We can do it!!!

Since i didn't update on other days, let's review what's been happening to me in my boring but interesting life (as if):

Monday
Errr. It was lecture all the way and then dikir training. Got home, SLEEP.

Tuesday
TVPROD WAS CANCELLED!!! YEAY!!! And then i don't need to attend for dinamis training! DOUBLE YEAY!!! But i had to come for Lit Review and just one short lecture in the afternoon. It's not so bad. :DD

Wednesday
I received my assesed tutorial for MRM and then i got an A. :DD It was an open book test so yeah...self-explanatory. And then i had leads writing test after that. Good luck to me on that one. After school, i went on air at Radioheatwave. Yes, i'm a part-time DJ for Radioheatwave. Good luck to me on time management.

Thursday
I had MM test. It's retarded that i remembered the answers before class and the night before but at the time of the test, i forgot like 1, 2, 3 of them. WEE-TAWD. And then dikir training after that. Went home, read through some of Spanish notes before retiring at around 11.30p.m. I've been sleeping early since school starts. Is that good or bad?
Good: I get enough rest.
Bad: Keje skola tak abes. Nyehehehehe

TODAY (Friday)
I had Spanish test today. There were only 2 questions but it's worth 25%. STRESS. nampak 25% jek aku stress -_-It wasn't too bad. I hope. Heeeee. There's drama training later in the evening today. Before that, i gotta do my LitReview which i am soooo not looking forward to. It's like due on Monday. Gaaaaahhhh. Anyhoo, amz is stressed studying for her French test later. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Mak da cakap, Perancis susah. Kau tak nak dengar. Kan, Kan, Kannnn ;P

Well, that's all i have for now. Buenas tardes!

-KiKi ouTz-
Tired.Drained.Beat.
Can't help it but Misery.Loves.Me.

2008-05-07T23:14:00.004+08:00

.amalyna.
i'll smile cos i deserve to

today didn't start out right. was rushing madly in the morn just to make it on time in sch. too bad had to waitdamn long to get into a train because it was damn packed lahh. the reason why hate to travel to school on wed morns. then had to listen to the naggy preachings about punctuality. he didn't know he was nagging to the wrong audience. and i was ONLY 15 minutes late.wth can. went up for the committee nomination thing. unfortunate that there's been a pending nomimation. we'll find a solution soon. had lunch with ms wong, kh,wl and eve. ms wong is actually a nice person to talk to. other than that, the day's been ok. was hoping it would rain but it didn't. the thunder was a false alarm. hope it will soon. i love walking in the rain. if only i had company :)

oh and before it's too late...

happy eighteenth to lezlie!

our newly appointed HRC.

feroz and his smashing skills.lol.
and the cake was gd keith.
i guess everyone has a hidden talent :)

i convinced myself tonight.

tired of getting up for the letdown.

not gonna bother anymore.

&this time i'm serious.

shall waste my thoughts on other matters.

i'm gonna be ok like always.

in time, all will get better !

2008-05-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
worth a million smiles

pretty interesting day yesterday. hope shumin and weilin feel better. the recovering process is going on well i guess since my mood has been a lot better. and whatsmore, there's good news (i think). gossip girls gt posted to MC. hahs. rege and me lah. i gt posted as project coordinator. it's gonna be tough "coordinating" but i'll give it my best. thankful to know that there are people out there who trust me and what i can do.oh~congrats to the other MCs. can't wait for us to work together this year! sub-com, we counting on you too! i don't think i'm a good judge of character so i shall stop judging people altogether :) . feels great to have a new change, it refreshes the soul. i'm still making amends for my mistakes and there's a lot more growing up to do. i think my friends just make it less painful. glad to have the optimistic me back! it sucks being a pessimistic optimist. hahhs.

Henry Ford

Coming together is a beginning.

Keeping together is progress.

Working together is success.

It is amazing how much you can accomplish when it doesn't matter who gets the credit.

if only you know me.

understand this,

i don't wish to be misunderstood.

wanting a part of your everything.

&still craving for that ice cream =P

2008-05-05T12:45:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

Wassup yo? How's your weekend? Spent mine at the MCC FOC. It was cool to know some of the freshies there. And there are a lot more whom i may not have known because they didn't attend the camp. The camp was on Saturday and Sunday. Reached home at around 6+ and i was dead beat. Went to sleep at around 8 and slept all the way till morning. Even so, i'm still tired. Playing captain's ball under the hot hot sun made everyone get sunburn. Almost everyone i know went home red-faced. The worst? Well there's no bad looking sunburns. Just cute ones. LoL! Like for example, Saf got it on her cheeks and she looked like she was wearing blushers. Maybe a bit like pikachu and Irma looked like Rudolph the reindeer. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAA!! Irma got a red nose :P

I apologize that this is a short one but i have to go for lecture. See you guys around, whoever you are. Meanwhile, enjoy this: That Green Gentleman by Panic At The Disco. Watch out for the guy who fell off his big bike somewhere in the vid. That's Jon by the way. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! :P Later!

-KiKi ouTz-
1st.Day.Period.Sucked.BIG.Time.

2008-05-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
just another saturday.

yeap. the weekend is here. not that there's nething interesting to tell. hmm, i realised i blog more often than most people would.hahhs. i think that's just because i need to put my thoughts somewhere. even then, there are some things you just keep to yourself. urghh. the weather's been really hot and it's irritating me. i'm waiting for the rain, who knows a rainbow might pop up somewhere :) woohoo. alone at home. no nagging rents and no irritating sibs. now i can finally hear myself think. sometimes i wish they'd leave me alone. well, only sometimes. it wouldn't be the same without any of them. i think i messed up somewhere. i don't know why but everything seems out of place to me. i'm like blinded by all the good things and all i can see is my flaws and my don't haves. i don't like where i am now. the past few weeks have been really emotional for me. i don't like too much of anything. i want my balance. these days even if i'm laughing and joking around with friends, i still feel a little lonely somehow. plus, i haven't been paying attention in class except for event creations and accounts :) argh. i'm losing sight. all i seem to be doing is go through each day without looking forward to anything. i definitely messed up somewhere. cheer me up with that beautiful smile of yours & perhaps some ice cream?? :D

celebrated skye's bdae yest during log class. the sisters baked a cake for him & we all bought him RIVER ISLAND vouchers worth a 100 bucks. lols,happy shopping skye! bring me along too!

awesome cake. girls, next time baking at my place!
skye cutting the cake. more like stabbing it. jk!
rege and me.

gossip girls

xoxo

jk.

results on monday ya'll.

i'm guessing some surprises ;)

2008-05-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
here comes ms may

HAPPY 18TH TO ROSIE!!!
miss ya gerl!

HAPPY 18TH TO SKYE TZK!!!

king and queen of may!

woke up early in the morn today to meet the peeps at Changi Airport. I think there were 20-30 of us there..hahhs. Farhan's fan-club. stayed till we saw him off for umrah. so sweet rite? all of us sending him off like his big extended family. that's how much we treasure our dear mr prez. once a prez of BE (twice actually), always a prez of BE! hope that he finds whatever answers he needs to find and come home safely...insyallah (god willing). farhan will be missed! till the 12th lahh.

my sisters are over at eve's place right now werking on a project. hope they have fun, wish i could be there though...aww. :(

loverbirds & sparks

cheese singles can only envy

am i invisible or what?

2008-05-01T15:35:00.007+08:00

Ros

Yea man.. i turn eighteen today.. haha.. legal age huh.. one yr older and one less yr to do good for my bekal mati.. my eighteen yrs of life is filled with joy, laughter, pain and tears.. sometimes i feel lyk i'm on the top of the world.. and sometimes i feel i've been grounded into dirt.. ouh well, thats life! i'm looking forward for the new things to happen.. and for sure i miss my younger days...

Thanks for all the birthday wishes gurls...!! i love love love you lots...

I'm happy to share the some happy month with my bro and quite a number of my friends..

The May Babies...

- 01.05 Me..:)

- 10.05 Maybellina

- 11.05 Liana Baby

- 12.05 Tqah

- 14.05 Wani

- 15.05 My bro, Rushidee

- 19.05 Imah

- 21.05 Zinn & Umar

- 23.05 Hisham

- 25.05 Aina Mardhiah

- 27.05 Khai Sikal

- 30.05 Elly

MCG freshie orientation was okay pretty-fun yest.. Though I didnt make lots of noise.. Quiet birthday mood agaknye.. hahaha.. Everything went kindda smooth despite some normal little hiccups.. No event is ever perfect.. Fun meeting the freshies and was glad when they say they enjoyed the orientation yest..heee:)

Rosdahliana

petite.

2008-04-29T17:19:00.002+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

I actually wanted to update on that particular day but time didn't allow me to do so. So here goes...Kak Aida passed away last Saturday at the age of 25. Yes, she's only 25. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat mu. Al-fateha...

Here's what actually happened: I was told that the amniotic fluid from the water bag went up to her lungs and heart which caused her to stop breathing. And she was actually gone for a while before the doctor revived her. And so the baby was delivered via C-section. The baby is fine, alhamdullillah. Her name is Dayang Dynaz if i'm not wrong. Cute little girl she is. She looked like she was smiling when i saw her. I didn't see her elder sister tho.

It was a shock to know that she passed away the day after i visited her. I visited her on Saturday. When i was there at the hospital, i heard abg im said that her condition went back to how it was in day one which was not very good. It was sad to see the tubes around her and how she's fighting for her life. But then her time has come and i'm sure she's in a good place now.

That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
My.Condolences.

2008-04-29T09:34:00.004+08:00

.amalyna.
whisper war breaks out today (yayy) :)

feeling so much better right now.
all because of a sweet dream.
hahhs. weird, unrealistic but nevertheless, pleasant.
too bad i had to wake to reality.
nothing good ever lasts.
actually to think about it, nothing lasts forever.
but whatever.
do dreams represent the sub-conscious mind or what?
hmm.
gotta get ready for school now.
and the only difference today is that,
i'll be smiling today :D

thank god i apologized to daddy,
couldn't live with the guilt.
i guess all that's happening made me
irrational (and delusional?)
that's just it,
i'm more of a thinker rather than a feeler
which is why all this melodramatic and emotional crap
is driving me crazy.
TSK!

i may not be a happy goober today,
but a least a smiling one!
x)

kidnap my heart!

2008-04-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
just another BLUE monday

i have no idea why i'm feeling so lousy nowadays. actually i do know why just that i'm not sure why i let all that's hapening affect me. i'm hoping it's just pms. i don't feel like talking to anyone, like a silent strike. not that it means not being around people, i just really don't feel like saying a word.

hmm. i know i should be more cheerful when i'm around other people. i'm really sorry to all especially my 03 sisters for being so emo the past few days. you people always find a way to make me smile somehow, thanks dears!

i really think it's the mind, body, soul thing. i think there's a lot that has been happening in my life i haven't got the time to sit back and analyse each situation. i don't like to say that i'm stressed cause if so, i really have no idea what i'm stressed about. if i say i'm having problems, everyone else have their own problems to settle. i have no idea how to explain how i'm feeling. all i want to do at this point is to feel better, to feel satisfied of myself. i lost my self-confidence amidst the chaos, gotta regain it back. i feel my old awkward self creeping out. it scares me because i hate whoever i was. it took damn long for me to become who i am today and i'm not going to lose myself again. crisis control. i should do some personal revamping. perhaps should start with some soul cleansing. god help me.

i hate to be pestered to do something.

since when it became my responsibility to take care of other people's feelings?

and disegard my own?

like growing up isn't difficult enough

and you still drag me in your mess.

who will make me a happy goober? (:

2008-04-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
There is only one way to achieve happiness on this terrestrial ball, and that is to have either a clear conscience or none at all. - Ogden Nash

so where do i start? hmm. ok, yesterday. of what i remembered i was frustrated during tutorial mainly for prm. sometimes i don't understand the relevance to the modules and it's not a good feeling when your answers are rejected and somehow the correct "answer" makes us look dumb even though we got the main idea but whatever. why make it so complex for us? and since when isit wrong to have discussions across groups during tutorials? everyone's learning anyways..haiz.. headed to aishah's place for dinner with some of the BE peeps. good food & company of course. :)

today. gt nagged early in the morning for coming home so late blah3. slept till 830 and realised i was late for school. not that i rushed or anything. (log is not a mod i'd die missing) was ok when i stepped out the house till i was on the way to the mrt station. started getting nauseous, walked extra slowly to class. didn't even listen much to the lecture cos my head was spinning. the first time i really felt i'd faint. thank god i didn't. the whole day till late afternoon i had these crazy headaches. sad man. it might have to do with my glucose level or blood pressure or something. shah said that it could be because of all the stress i accumalated the past 6 months. i think so too. it sucks being sick and mind you i'm not faking it for attention. i'm not the sort. but seriously am thankful for those who took care of me everytime my immune system fails me...especially my "sworn" sisters. hahhs, thanks gerls,u rock! felt so much better after i had a choc bar and ate teriyaki chicken..(strangely i had the apetite). mood was even better hanging out with the "sworn" sisters of 03..oh, plus chuan ern (lol)woots~ thought of going to lollipop at MOS but decided against it.hahhs. for many reasons & one of the reasons wud be the same as stated by shiffa that is god is definitely watching over me. plus, i think i've had my fun with all these partying stuffs already. hope the peeps had fun though :)

it's so difficult to make new friends. i'm still not comfortable with the aprroaching people part. even for those usual faces in the club i still haven't really gotten close to most of them. i suck at socializing can. but was glad when rege & shumin said that i don't make people hate me in other words i'm highly likeable :) hahs. ppl if u see me talk to me cn!!! i'm really a noob at conversations, help me lahh! lols!

i don't crave for anything else.

just looking for greatness, in me, in you...

2008-04-25T12:39:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

"Mother didn't see me even though i was right beside her."

Sadly, that's what happened to my mom and me. She was crossing the road from the opposite direction while i was in the other. We stopped in the middle of the road while waiting for traffic. I kept looking at her and she still didn't see me until i snapped my fingers at her. I was like, "Eh eh mak cik ni. Aku besar-besar gini pon tk nmpk?" -__-" This is not the first time though. Happens at home too. I may be big sized but amazingly i'm invisible as well. Sounds kinda cool. Maybe i should consider being a spy as my future career.

Anyhoo, Mr Spanish is kinda grumpy today. Prolly coz he's tired. Well he looks tired. But its still fun for me. Now there's more stuff to remember for future tests. Gaaaahh...

Sad news here: My dikir instructor's wife is in ICU after giving birth to their second child. I heard that the water from the water bag went up to her lungs and now she's in coma. It's very sad and scary at the same time. Let's all pray for her to get well soon. Insyaallah i go visit her tomorrow.

That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
Sometimes.She.Feels.Insignificant.

2008-04-24T12:13:00.007+08:00

Ros

Free Period!!

Supposed to hv a 2hr lect nw.. But then my lecturer's not in this morn.. Having lab next after lunch.. Going to hv flossing demo, if I'm nt wrong.. hehe.. Gosh! I really need to discipline myself to floss my teeth everyday man.. At least once daily.. Cos that's what you're supposed to do to hv a healthy mouth... And don't forget to brush your teeth twice daily; in the morning when you wake up and at night before you go to bed.. hehehehe... smiles!

I May Not Be The Best
But Everything I Do
I Do My Best!

That's the way.....!!!

Exactly in a wk's time..
Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-04-23T22:26:00.005+08:00

.amalyna.
:) you're my happy thoughts.

kinda bored now. lols. today was great. as usual IT was a bore, think the lesson should go a lil bit faster. cross cult was a bore too cos we didn't do much. sat in for the event ex presentation for mr ong's freshie class. some ideas were really good but must see if practical enough lah. they have a lot to learn...just like we did last year. man, i miss yr 1. hahhs. yr 2 isn't too bad just too much theory. event ex still the best mod! well, that's because i had an awesome team... lols.

about the interview aye? shhh.

i have nothing to say about it.

hahhs. wait for it lah then.

i trust that whatever it is the spirit will continue.

so glad that my apetite came back today. hahhs. and i feel sooooo much better. must thank all the peeps around me. i seriously LURVE you guys! been a long time since i hung out at the club for so long. de-stress mode. very conducive.

been talking about going to c5 concert with rege and shah. i want!!!! but that would mean 100 bucks gone. i wonder if some kind soul would like to splurge for me. hahhhhhs. whats more we wanna go paramore's concert later this year too! aww. GET A JOB LAH AMA! hahhs. thinking, thinking. wonder if the cab gonna make a trip here. i'm so going if they have a showcase here. wanna see my alex d & alex m! random. hmm..gotta ask cuz about internship wif lushington. hoping,hoping.

other random stuffs:

i want to learn play guitar can?

(which reminds me i gotta buy guitar strings & i dunno where's my pick.aahhh)

i need shoes. why keds ex?

i want to catch a movie some time.

CS Chanel guitar very cool. hahhhs.

(i remember FOB gt LV one. )

i want hush sound's goodbye blues.

i sooo want cab's whisper war.

i think....

i dunno what to think.

hehhs.

sometimes, it's alrite not to expect much.

wrap me in your arms

2008-04-22T21:13:00.002+08:00

support the green movement =)

not gonna update much...been really drained physically and emotionally. not that i'm complaining. ;)

just to share,

"Save You"- Simple Plan

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever
I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s Just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do
I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause
I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

you could only guess what the song means to me.

2008-04-21T18:04:00.004+08:00

Ros

Hello.

It's been long since I last updated. Like I said, I've been busy and tired these days. At the same time trying to get back to my work momentum after such long breaks. Yr Two!! Tough.. Js the first wk of sch and I missed lessons.. Was excused frm class for the Club Crawl tingy.. Bt I managed to go for some lects and lab sessions. And my sat mornings are gone..!! I've to report to hpb for my clinical work.. Goodness, it's only half-day work.. And I'm free in the afternoon.

Club Crawl 08 was splendid!! Though the prep part wasn't so smooth.. And we had to face some complications. Normal stuffs. As an optimistic person, I dun pay so much attention on the negative part and overall, I think we all have put in much effort.. And so we deserve to win the Best Booth.. 3 cheers to NYP Malay Cultural Group!! The performance during the Club Crawl was awesome! Esp FB's. They really gt the groove. And nt forgetting the Tarian Ladies and the Dikir guys, who'll nvr lose their charisma. Smiles!!

Banner prep.

The Banner Masters
Ros, Faizal & Hash
It's a pleasure working with them. Coolness!:)

Wani & Hafizul

The Fresh Kampong Gurls. Lovely.

Club Crawl 08
Best Booth
Cheers!

*Credits to Hash for the pics.

Yest after madrasah, went to Kak Sida's wedding at ChongPang CC whc is sumwhr in Yishun. Since I'm still nt very sure hw to go thr, despite after asking Tqah for help, Pet walked me thr. He has offered himself to be my tour guide. Thnks Pet!

I'm worried. Worried that I will lose a friend one day. I really hate if we have to kill the friendship that we've been cultivating all this while. Forgive me for all my words. Honestly, I mean no harm to you. I hope you'll keep the promise that you made. And I'll do my part by trusting you.

Mencari ketenteraman jiwa
Memantapkan lagi iman yang lemah
Aku berdoa dan berserah
Hanya Dia yang dapat membantuku

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-04-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

I watched the news just now and was utterly disgusted when i heard that there were three youths aged 15 n 16-s robbing cab drivers. I went: WTH?? They're only 15 and 16-year-olds for goodness sake! This is just disgusting. TOTALLY disgusting. Come on la guys. You still have yet to discover life and now there's a possibility that you don't and won't experience it anytime in the near future. Sigh. This is so sad. Kids these days are getting a bit stupid nowadays. They prolly don't think before they act. They just do whatever they want without thinking of the consequences. Life lesson: Please THINK before you do anything.

I'm watching a talkshow on TV. Not really WATCHING but the TV is on dat channel so i guess the TV is watching me instead. No offence, I find it totally lame and boring. If this particular talkshow is trying to be like the Tyra Banks show, it really is not working. To me anyways. Somehow it turns me off and not interested to watch it. Oh well. I like Ellen Degeneres above all others. She's the best :) I guess it all depends on the host and the set design perhaps? The host is a definite but i think the set design counts too.

Went to cuzzie shouse for kenduri just now. It was VERY humid there. I sweat like hell la! But it was fun meeting with my cuzzies after quite a while of not seeing them. Reached home, called that someone but he doesnt sound too happy. I had a little emotional moment right after that and mom consoled me. Thanks mom. Forgive me for telling the truth and that i will sound BAD for letting this out but i used to not like mom coz she was never really there and all. But after a while, i realised that she went thru a lot more shit than i did and is still staying strong. Sadly, bro still doesnt realise this. Oh well. I guess he needs more time. So at the end of the day, i can now sincerely say that i love my mom :)

Well, that's all for me. Later. Buenas noches!

-KiKi ouTz-
Think.Think.And.THINK.
p.s. can you PUH-LEASE get AWAY from MEEEE.

2008-04-18T20:24:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
won't be a part of this

what can be done when you have nothing to say?
i can't say that everything will be fine
because i don't want to say something i don't believe in.
all i could do is lend a shoulder and shed wasted tears.
is this all it means to be a family?
i can't blame anyone.
i'm not even angry.
just disappointed, again and again.

i believe in fate.
i'm sure there's a reason.
but still

if only the wind would carry our troubles away.

my sticky note wish~
god, please answer my prayers.

thank you my friends for being concerned.
thanks shah for listening.
i needed some comforting.

2008-04-18T10:38:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah

Buenas dias! :)

I'm having a break from Spanish class right now. It's kinda cool and fun. The lecturer's cool and funny too. So overall, the class is FUN! Heheh..(What's with the repitition??) I can safely say no regrets for choosing Spanish over French.

I have to go back to class soon. So here's a quickie:
1) Met Dayak and Lyna on Wednesday and turns out i forgot to pay Dayak back her $5. -.-"
2) I miss ROSIE!!!
3) First impression of my Spanish lecturer: Eccentric. But he's okay actually. Heheh.
4) I feel a bit stupid today because i forgot to bring both my wallet and my pencil case. How much dumber can i get?? Naseb baek class from 8-12 jek. And there's Dayah..heee
5) Please help me DEMAND Paramore and PATD. :)) (go to their myspace to demand them.)
6) WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE WEARING THE SAME VANS SHOE THAT I HAVE??? What's up with that man?!?! sheesh...

Okay that's all for now. Gotta get back to class. Adios!

-KiKi ouTz-
Be.Back.Soon.

2008-04-16T22:29:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
sometimes in life we miss out the fine prints

so early today i thought it would be a good day to 'debut' my newly bought everlast shoes. i totally regretted it. haiz, first of all when i bought the pair of shoes i thought the shoes were tight but that salesguy said it'd expand plus the next size didn't fit me well either. was so happy that i bought it but walking to and around school in it was a torture. was uttering profanities on the way to school...so unholy rite. sorry shu min and aishah for my crude moment. hahhhs. anyways thank you donut for wearing the shoes for me the rest of the time. lols. anyways i gave away the shoes to my sis as a bdae prez (still brand new kay). thinking maybe i shud get keds instead. hahah. see how lahh.

today the class had IT. not much to say only that i hope i cn get at least a B+ for this sem. lols. suck at IT jargon. we oso had cross cult. another mod i think i might enjoy. ms kit reminds me of mr tommy. like totally. which makes it more interesting for me to pay attention during class. wats more, both teach/taught me a social science mod/sub. lols. i seem to like humanities a lot. might take up a side bachelor degree in sociology. that is to be considered much later. lol.

went home straight after lessons. cud have stayed a little while more if not for the fact that i couldn't take the pain anymore. freekin shoes. went out again at 4 to meet kikikins and dayakkus at jp. had a great time js chatting. woots. too bad rosie wasn't around, aww.

i'm really taking my break.
been thinking a lot of things.
it feels great to look forward to every day, i'm thankful really.
i'm always asking myself, "so, what's next?"

2008-04-15T13:14:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah

First and foremost, HAPPY SOPHOMORE YEAR!!! :DD

First Day
It was quite alright. The morning part of lecture was a bore. Too much talking and from the way i hear it, the lecturer talked like as if we're very little children. "Listen up now. Honesty is a very serious crime. Never tell lies.." What irma said was "Children, do not steal! Stealing is a crime! If you steal, you DIE!!!"

Oh well. I thought the lecturers would pass on the preppy talk about plagiarism but nooooo. Everywhere we go, plagiarism is heavily emphasised. Sigh...oh well. The afternoon part was...okay i guess coz all of a sudden, for the lecture on Media Research Methods, Irma n i were heavily copying notes. It's like as if we were hypnotized into listening and writing notes. Well it was probably due to the way the lecturer present herself that made us want to really listen and learn. Both of us have already told ourselves to buck up and really work hard this year. God give us strength and the will to learn. Insyaallah.

Second day
That would be now. I'm at the MCC booth at the CCA Fiesta. The response from the freshies were okay to me. Not bad i guess. The convention center was flooded with freshies yesterday who were looking around for a CCA to join. It wasn't as flooded today though. I'm now waiting for my next lesson at 4p.m. gaaahh....

That's all i have for now. At the moment, i REALLY want Whisper War. PLEASE SELL IT HERE!! :DD

I DEMAND PATD
I DEMAND PARAMORE
I DEMAND THE CAB
Demand them. NOW :DD

-KiKi ouTz-
I.Demand.Whisper.War.

2008-04-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

the sophomore phase: DAY 1

yeah. the first day of school is over. the day wasn't too bad just perhaps that my brain jammed up for a bit. too much information to be retained after so long. arrived in school at around 1045h and met aishah at clubhouse to do some stuffs..which was why we were late for ms rajes' Public Relations & Marketing class. not that she's not used to us being late and all, lols. anyways must thank her for making the effort to bind our notes together, safe us the hassle of doing it ourselves. hahhhs. PR seems like an ok mod to me, just like PM. (duhh, the same lecturer teaching us) our class had accounts & finance after that. mdm faith isn't that bad, i might actually have a chance to ace this mod. well, hopefully. i've always wanted to take POA neways. then we had log&fac management. didn't do much just went through the module structure. i shall ace this mod as well since it has like the highst credit unit. lols, i'm like in desperate need of GPA. sad.

went to mr ong's office to drop off a letter with aishah. had a long chat about clubstuffs. lols, made me think about some things i shan't disclose. clubhouse was liked packed, as predicted. we can only wish that the clubhouse would be bigger. if only. oooooo, saw a rainbow today. hahhs, random i know. i think life is random itself. hahhs, if that makes any sense at all. also, today my heart skipped a bit. and now i'm sleepy. (don't try and figure anything out. nothing worth figuring. out.)

perhaps all we already have is enough
perhaps what we're given is only what we can handle
things may change, they probably will
time-play.

of what i've been looking for
i can't understand why it's taking so long
it's one thing to be patient
another thing to be miserable about it
perhaps it's not time
or i just don't deserve any of it.

only from afar.
only from afar.

2008-04-11T11:24:00.004+08:00

Ros

I'm leaving for sch in bout an hr's time. But think I shall quickly post one entry. Been going sch for e whole wk. Except for mon. My work's almost done. Sorry ekh kalo tk lawa.. Me nt an art student seyy.. Bt I did my best.. Woohooo!!

Okay. At last after several attempts, I can finally view my time table.. Hard core seyy!! Lots of lab sessions and lesser lectures. Esp on thurs.. Cos i end sch at 6 on thurs.. But Wed gerek.. 2 jam je skola.. Woohoo!! Taking a brand nw module tis sem.. OMP.. Oral Medicine Pharmacology.. Sounds cool huh??

And I dun like what i did 2 days ago. I know it's wrong bt why did I do it.. Ouh pls, forgive me for all my sins.. haaah. That js shows that im not perfect.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-04-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

and MOP-ED OUT!

yeahh!! done with the major events!!!! well, till the next of course x) it has been yet another crazy week. MOP aka Mass Orientation Programme went well despite some hiccups here and there. Felt a little like camp all over again.lols. the new batch of dpfm/depm students are really hyped up bunch. sometimes i think too hyped for the seniors like us to keep up with. hahahs! that is, only because we're too tired. been stretching myself thin with events for the past 2 months, finally a breather! (even if it means lessons are starting) i think all of us did a great job in every event we were involved in! BE POWER!

party like rockstars
was involved in the freshmen party which ended like 4 hrs ago..spend the whole night last night trying to deco the whole concourse. went home at 7 in the morn and slept till3. hahhs, oops my bad! arrived back in school ard 5.30pm and by then the party was already on the go. lols. was fun helping out in the stage side. i shud find my ITP with a concert management company! the party was awesome i should say especially with our BE family around. i don't know how many times i've mentioned but seriously I LOVE YOU GUYS!

the past two months of hot events and activities only makes us bond more together, i've enjoyed my hols despite the weariness and all, BE club always makes my day!

thank you for everything.
i'm smiling for many reasons.
this time i'm telling myself,
that it's something else.
the many reasons for change!

2008-04-08T20:33:00.003+08:00

.amalyna.
i woke up today and realised that our troubles begin with our insecurities

today hasn't been awesome but it wasn't that bad. it was great to see my FO Family! it has been really tiring, i might just faint of exhaustion one of these days. to think about it, it has been events full force since ADD. but all is fine cause i love what i'm doing now. after MOP i shall take a breather and just settle down for our sophomore year! woots~

today i learnt,
i can get irritated if someone else is pessimistic.
it doesn't matter if things screw up, as long as at the end of the day, we can all say that we've done our best.
there will come a time when we'll all have to let go whatever we hold dear.
there's always a limit to everything, except perhaps patience.
it's true when they say, stay when you're needed but unwanted; leave when you're wanted but no longer needed.

i read somewhere, i think in one of chuck palahniuk's book,
"what's the point in being related to someone and thus having all this extra investment in their well-being when you can't do a darn thing to make them feel better." my exact sentiments.

deep wounds leaves scars.
scars never go away.
some memories become scars.
they haunt you and sometimes, used against you.

dear god, i'm still counting my blessings.

2008-04-07T20:46:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

Alas, a long and tiring weekend has passed. Phew! Glad that both events turned out as a success in the end. Well, to me anyways. Even though both events clashed, I made it for both events. They are CGA and my aunt's wedding.

First up, its the CGA (Chalet Gempak Adiratna). Whoa. I LOVE the place. It's at Aloha Loyang. The chalet has like four rooms and 5 toilets. It has like an open spaced concept..Like...Bali themed where on the inside, there's like these stones for meditating. It was cool and nice. Lovely.

Ok so on Friday, we checked in to the chalet and like have our on free and easy time there till sometime 11 at night coz that's when most of us have arrived. We did some group splitting and cheering and then we have our free and easy time again. The next morning, i left the girls to go over to my aunt's place at Woodlands for her nikah (imagine travelling from Pasir Ris to Woodlands...sleep all the way la ape lagi!!). Sadly, i missed the telematches that they're gonna have. Anyhoo, I arrived there earlier than my mom who was supposed to bring me my baju kurung -.-" dots betol.

After the nikah, i went back home to take some stuff and left the dirty clothes home and then off to Pasir Ris back. Reached there, the BBQ has started and Irma BBQ-ed the chickens for me. Thanks Irma! After the BBQ, we had some prize giving ceremony and then we cleared the place for the night. The next day, we cleared some more and then we check out. We waited for the bus for like....more than half an hour -.-" and then we went to McDonald's for a late breakfast and back home.

Reached home, brought in the laundry, changed into some nice clothes and left for my aunt's wedding. Surprisingly, i saw Iza at my aunt's wedding! Heeee...Turns out her mum is friends with my Grandaunt. Lawa sehh Iza! ahahaha

If wanna view some picture, there are LOADS of them. I'll wait for Saf to upload the pictures at Adiratna's multiply and then i'll give u guys the link, if you're interested of course.

Well, that's all i have for now. Gotta go. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
French.Are.For.Bastards. (<- Quote from Irma)
Like Irma is..MUAHAHAHA

2008-04-05T08:40:00.003+08:00

Ros

My thoughts :

- I'll be the silent one in the grp. Cos if everybody were to talk, then it'll get very confusing. But I'll make myself heard if I really got sth important to say. And that's definite.

- I thought they were much better than me. But sumtimes I feel that my luck is better than them. I'm a one lucky gurl.

- What in life is easy... ?? But you don't hv to push yourself so hard. There's no easy way or hard way.. It's js the right way

- Everybody is not listening and thinking. They js want to do the talking. Even if they know that they are actually shitting.

- One talk. And everybody else listens.

Ouh, and that is not for me to judge.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-04-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

.amalyna.
thank you for the beautiful ending

yeah! back after 6 days 5 nights away from home... camp was awesome! man, we have some crazy freshies on board, which is definitely a gd thing. our new additions to the Everlasting BE Family! i'd be lying if i said everything went without a glitch but we got thru evrything and well, we did good. even though i didn't feel well on the 2nd night, i felt much better thanks to my caring FOF. thanks guys for ur concern especially thanks to xav,felicia,val for taking care of me and also to janet for cooking me some porridge...really appreciate it. i gt better the day after, during sing-a-long session.hahhs, sing-a-long is somewhat my forte. totally cured me of my misery.lols.

3rd day was the best for me cause everyone was hyped up. it was the first for us to hold a campfire on the beach in the middle of the night, and the bonfire was really cool lahh, loads of rubbish. the guys had a fun time making it. i'd remember the night...everyone together like that is very rare.hahhs...some of the skits were gd...mimicking(sp?) our OCs & firstmates. lols. even i gt mentioned though i didn't really understand it.hahhs.

me&shah left first to clear some stuffs in sch. thank god mr ong was there to help us! lols. the ppt put together by lez was a gd way to relive everything. and the gdbyes were super touching lah even i teared a bit. i think the GLs really did an awesome job in bringing the freshies together. and the helpers really relieves us OCs frm our initial burden. THANKS GUYS, YOU ROCK!~ OHH, not forgetting our seniors who came down, fathy our camp advisor, ubai,rong fa etc. special mention to our (expiring) mr prez, farhan...thx lotx for ur guidance & encouragement to the OCs. thanks for having faith & trusting us. it won't be the last time so continue believing in us!

To my dear OCs,
it has been great a journey for all of us. we started out very hyped, but we've experienced so much lows too, at times to the verge of insanity( we all know when). tolerating each other ways & working things out together makes us a stronger team. we've dedicated so much time and cash to this, i'm glad it turned out awesome! i've learnt to accept everyone of their abilities rather than their personalities. i hope that i have been of help to you guys as well. i'm gonna miss our meetings together, all the jokes, laughter,food, handphone chargers & sleeping bags we shared, we really have become a real family. thanks ah! it feels so weird to have no reason to see you guys now. oh man, i'm tearing up! crap. see you guys soon we haven't took a picture together!

that's it for foc. then there's the MOP nxt wk! gonna see the freshies again for yet another fun week. woohoo! man, they're so lucky to have us.

to our dear freshies *if u're reading this* come to the FO party on the 10th! we'll be there so lookout aite!

BE SPIRIT! EVERLASTING!
NOW THAT'S A STATEMENT.

2008-04-03T14:27:00.005+08:00

Ros

hello.

So fast.. It's april already.. And soon i'll be legal to smoke, drink,club and take driving license.. hehehehe.. kidding.. Yg faham, faham.. Yg tak tau, tkpe.. hehehe...

After sometime not meeting my Andayu mates, at last we saw each othr during our general meeting two days ago.. Of course lah not the full strength were present but most of us were thr.. And now after wks of just "rotting" at home at last i've gt some work to do.. The last 2 wks of hols will be kindda busy for most of us.. We'll hv to go sch for some meeting and to get some work done for the club crawl tingy.. we only hv 2 wks.. bt i tink we cn get things done by then.. While trying to give my best commitment to my cca, hope i'll not forget my basic responsibility and the reason why i was created.. And I've to learn to behave lyk a senior nw though I love being a junior..

I admire ppl who enjoys reading and they read regularly.. I know of some.. hehe.. It's a good habit to read!! Whc i dun reali hv... hehe.. I only read when I feel lyk to.. Usually, ppl who enjoys reading are the smart ones.. They're one step ahead of othrs.. And they know things that othrs don't.. Cool.. I don't really enjoy novels.. Especially the cintan cintun ones.. But I like those thrillers.. And I enjoy more on psychology.. Woohooo!!

Ouhkay. That's all an update bout my life recently. Everybody take care ok. And smile always. Trust me, u'll enjoy the results..!

Skill will allow you to get the job done
Inspiration will carry you thru the inevitable challenges and slumps

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-31T15:36:00.002+08:00

Ros

Early Morning Scene

haha. yest, i was in e bus on my way to madrasah. then skali the bus broke down. when i board it, tk suspect seyy bus tu nk rosak. steady je die jalan. hehe. luckily, it broke down at one of the bustops near the interchange. hehe. i was sort of late already yest but amazingly, i wasn't at all mad. hehe. chill je. yet i found it amusing la. pagi2 lagi dah buat scene ekh...

TODAY

i'm ok, all healthy, still able to function as normal, still posessing what life has to offer me(Alhamdulillah...) but i dun feel great inside. haaiizzz..

i dun like to talk but if i dun talk, i'll eat myself up. i'm secretive but i dunnoe why i'm so reserved. and also insecure. C'mon lah Rosie, u're better than that ok. that's what I always tell myself. it's true. i'm better than all that. but why am i not feeling it now??

i manage to talk to some ppl. thnks for listening. i told them the same thing. they said i need to speak up. dun keep things just within myself.

Lady, you need to start talking!

Lady, you need to trust yourself!

So that you'll trust others...

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
begin with the end in mind!
IT'S DAY ZEROOOOOOOOO!

supposed to be fast asleep right now cos i have to be up and about in about 5 hours...been having the butterflies all day..such a nervewreck right now! i couldn't even think straight while packing my bag..maybe it's because i'm excited that the time has finally come..i'm NOT GOING TO THINK ABOUT THINGS SCREWING UP. hahhss. even if some things do, it doesn''t really matter cause i don't believe in perfection. aaaarrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh. i hope everything will go well. i believe it will. of course it will!!!!!!!!! GO OCs & FIRSTMATES! WE CAN ROCK THIS!

that's about it then.

hopefully my next entry will be full of good news and awesome pictures from camp!

oohhhhh. camp bug!

wish us luck!

for all the sacrifices that we made

i pray that things will go our way.

god, give me & my team the strength

to give our best everyday...

2008-03-28T14:18:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST STRAW!!!

The next time I go out, and people starts looking at me like as if I'm some kind of alien, I'm gonna look back at them the way they looked at me. What the fcuk is wrong with these people?? Do you know what it feels like? It feels like as if I'm the human, they're the animals and they have never seen a human being before. Kesian...jakonn... And the next time I hear a mat rep mengutok orang, I'm gonna act as if I'm on the phone and kutok them back. Nampaksa seh kepale otak maseh mentah. Aku rase kepale otak die setipis badan die. Brainless retards. Not worth to be friends with if all they ever think about is to talk bad about others when they themselves are no better. Especially when they said how ugly the other party is when they themselves are ugly, ugly gile babi..AMEK KAU

Amidst the angry moments, i found some happy moments too. I GOT PRETTY. ODD. OHTHEYEAYNESS. Though i gotta admit, i prefer AFYCSO. I really think that AFYCSO is better. Don't get what i'm talking about? No worries. Doesn't involve much people.

Oh and Dayah says hello! :))

Things have changed for me
And that's okay
I feel the same
I'm on my way
And I say
Things have changed for me
And that's okay
-That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed)
PATD, P. O.

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
Hippie.Of.The.21st.Century.
LOL.

2008-03-28T13:12:00.005+08:00

Ros

hehe.

was bored at home. so i took out my e-mths tys, whc i've not touched for bout 2 yrs.. thought of burning it after o-lvls bt then decided to keep it. aku beli ngn duit seyy bukan ngn pasir...hehe. do some algebra stuffs. hey, glad that i remembered sum of the things. xcept some formulae.. hee.. i used to hate maths bcos i'm very weak in it. my dad would always make noise bcos of that. but then i got dedicated maths teachers who've helped me alot. they had faith in me. and my maths improved. now that i dun get to do maths in poly, i miss maths.. hee...

made dad's coffee. made with daughter's love. also with an appreciation for working hard so that i can go to school and get a good education. and also for being a wonderful dad who would do anything so that his family get enough. thanks daddy!

and not forgetting my mom. who delivered me on Labours' Day. A nice day to have a new family member. hehe. ouh well, i'm not my parents' favourite child. and i don't care bout that. i admit that sumtimes misunderstanding happened and i defied my parents. but they're still my parents. and it's a Fardh(wajib) to give them the respect and the appreciation they deserve.

An apology to someone :

Hey friend, i know that u'll dropped by my blog so i decided to post this msg for you. Just a few lines for ya. I'm sorie. I'm not perfect. I can't impress everybody. But I hope we can always be friends. I hope this msg reach you. Thank you.

They say :

- If you have a good relationship with your parents, you already have the deposit to go heaven.

- Wanita yang pandai selalunya bukan wanita yang cantik. i guess i belong to that category. hee...

- In life, there's two ways; the easy way and the right way. Which one will be the choice??

- If you love someone then let him go. If he comes back as a changed person, then he's meant to be yours. If he doesn't, that means his love was nvr yours to begin with.

- The true way to gain much is nvr to desire much.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-26T13:45:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
day negative four & i'm eating ice cream.yummays.

will be out for school in a bit but felt like posting up before i get ready and go. lucky for me, mum didn't nag at me when i reminded her yest that i'll be sleeping over in sch tonight. phew! thank god, my parents seem to be more understanding these days. as long as i take care of myself, they say. oh, and call home. mum will make such a big fuss if i don't. hopefully, today's sleepover will be fruitful. still, there's stuffs to be settled. i've been forgetting the stuffs that i'm supposed to do. haizzz. brain cell drainage has distorted my memory..thx eh aishah. lols. anyways, i guess it'll definitely be super fun like always with the whole comm ard plus our helps cmg down. good to know the spirit's there. man, it's THIS SUNDAY!!!!!

was glad to see dayak, ros, nini, nani, khalisa &jal yest after so long. even though it's a sad occasion that brought us together. i hope jal's ok..be strong jal! we'll be here for you.

thank you god for letting me know

that there are lots to be thankful for.

remind me again when i begin to forget.

2008-03-25T14:01:00.002+08:00

Ros

Hiduplah seperti mana yang engkau kehendaki, TETAPI INGAT, engkau pasti akan mati.

Buatlah apa yang engkau kehendaki, TETAPI INGAT, engkau pasti akan ditanya tentangnya.

Dan cintailah sesiapa yang engkau kehendaki, TETAPI INGAT, engkau pasti akan berpisah dengannya.

Oh Tuhan, mohon ampun
Atas dosa dan dosa selama ini
Aku tak menjalankan perintahMu
Tak perdulikan namaMu
Tenggelam melupakan diriMu

Oh Tuhan mohon ampun
Atas dosa dan dosa
Sempatkanlah aku bertaubat
Hidup di jalanMu
Tuk penuhi kewajibanku
Sebelum tutup usia
Kembali padaMu ~ Akhirnya by Gigi

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Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-24T22:18:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
all the what ifs in life

the day was brighter today (well, it didn't apply to the weather though) after i had my ice cream! yay to ice cream... went to school earlier to clear some finance stuffs and trying to figure out the other problems that we have to settle. this is so not easy but everyone's giving their best ad all i can say is thanks for all your hard work guys! we can do it! one more week! woohoo!

things are better at home as well! mum baked my fave homemade pineapple tarts today... and dad gave me another 50 bucks to spend..yayy to dad! glad he's not sulking anymore...will make up my absence at home by being a good daughter these few days..well, it is the least i could do.hahhs. today's been one of the better days i've had for weeks despite the weather and all. i love my kid sis! she totally cheered me up even more when i came home..one of those moments when i feel glad to have siblings..man, i love them much much!

listening to mcr after so long!
totally rocking it out..yeahhhh
music is a good thing about life.
seriously.

all in the mind babe!

2008-03-24T13:00:00.005+08:00

Ros

The start of the week again. Few more wks then we're bck in sch. Sad. I'd rather sit at hm and rot than going to sch. Cos at least at home I can do my own stuffs or when I'm a litttle hardworking, I can help my Mom with the chores. Hope my attitude towards sch will change n I'll be a little more studious. It's not that I dun like to study but I feel dead in sch. I dunnoe why I am not my real self in sch. Maybe bcos I do not have real friends in sch. I prefer going to madrasah seyy...

I have changed. Inside me, I feel myself different. The way I see the world now is different from the way I saw it 2-3 yrs back, when I was a secondary sch kid. The things that I used to adore when I was younger I dun really like them now. Except for cartoons lah. hehe. The things that I used to say "yes" to now I say "no". And vice versa. Life is different now and I've grown up. Woohoo!

There're sum things that I miss in my life but I can't have them bck. Cos they're gone. And there're things that i miss but I dun want them bck. Cos having them with me now is not right. They're something wonderful but they belong to my past. I Miss You But I Hate You, i guess.

Diam tak bererti kalah. Diam tak bererti bodoh. Diam kerana aku sedang berfikir. Diam kerana aku sedang mencari jawapan yang tiada.

You are my good friend. Because you always make me happy. No matter what happens, we will remain good friends. There's no one else like you.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
wished i was there.

stuck the whole day at home for reasons i don't understand.i won't apologise for things i don't feel apologetic for. there's no sincerity if i do so it's kind of pointless. instead of moping around i could have gone out with the BE peeps like planned and shop for the clubstuffs and could have celebrated shah's birthday (which was yest...happy 18!). i haven't been in an awesome mood all day possibly because i've been craving for ice cream for a week and haven't got any yet. should get some tomorrow before i get mentally disturbed about it.

at least there are some things to be happy about.
bought new stuffs! like,
i finally bought a pair of everlast shoes on sale.hahhhs.
and bought a new bag, though i need another one for school.

ohh, and need to get some more clothes since school is about to start neways.

but then again i'm broke.

haizzz.

indeed i've changed.
my dreams and ambitions are different now.
to think about it, then i was just a kid
i merely played along.

2008-03-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.
fop-ed out.sleep deprived, food deprived, shit deprived & cash deprived.
yeahh. fop's over. so freeken tired but it's all worth it cause it's for BE. and there you go with the BE SPIRIT.

Day 0

Comm members only. Did all the necessary preparations and even altered the itinerary. Covered all the necessary duties of each member. And all the sleep i got was for 45 minutes only.

Day 1
I wasn't around much in the first half of the day cause i was doing the enrollment thing for the DARCH students. Anyways, our number of campers rose to 90 and sadly, we couldn't cater for more. As much as we would have liked having more freshies in the camp we just didn't have the manpower and budget to handle a large crowd. The night activities could have been better. I admit we shouldn't do everything at the last minute but it seems to be a bad habit that we can't shake off. sometimes it works but it didn't worked out well enough to impress the seniors. After all we do have a reputation and a standard to keep up with. Which brings me to the point that we seem to be different in comparison to our seniors, i'm not quite sure how to explain it. Again, very much sleep deprived.

Day 2

Things were better in comparison to the first day. Received good feedbacks about the day's stations games and mass games, especially the telematch which has a new additional feature. was glad to see everyone more hyped up, it makes us feel we were finally doing something right. The late night activity was super cool lahh, scaring the hell out of our peer campers. hahhs. still can't believe the whole comm played along and managed to pull it off well AND all of it was last minute. wooHOOs. thinking of doing it agin for FOP. had the most sleep out of the 3 nights thank god.

Day 3

Our recce trip to the camp venue with the helpers. Again, mr eddy was kind to bring us around and even provided us with some drinks and snacks. the camp area is so big i wonder if we would be really able to exercise control and everything. but at least we all had a better picture of the whole campsite and i can aleady tell where's where, just hope i don't forget. the only bad thing about today was that i was freeken hungry cause i didn't had any dinner the night before, no breakfast and no lunch. other stuffs happened too but stuffs that i shan't disclose here. comm debriefing hardly seemed to be anything like a post-camp debrief at all because all of us was like laughing so hard after so many days of mere madness. probably because of everything we were deprived of. the sacrifices you have to make. oh well. i'm starting to wonder if i'm too dedicated. then i just figured at least being involved makes me happy and gives me more reason to be out more.

man, i love FOC 08/09 OC!
we went thru a whole lot these past few weeks and will be going thru many more hardships i reckon. hopefully we'll all get past all this and give our every dedication, sweat and tears to the success of this camp! we definitely can make it work. FOC, IT'S SO ON. wait for it...."YEGG!" *inside joke* =)

2008-03-18T09:17:00.005+08:00

Ros

BOO! Pagi pagi lagi aku dah kuar beli sarapan.. Alhamdulillah. Mee Rebus rezeki aku pagi ni. hehe. Slalunye aku bgn pkol 5 n sarapan sblom subuh. Psl nnti aku smayang tkleh concentrate. Kpale pening tk mkn. Tapi aku bgn lambat psl ngntok la. Smlm layan burung2 hantu kt msn. Smlm ntah knape aku tkleh tido. Satu jam aku try nk lelapkan mata tapi tkleh jgk. Jadi aku pun on computer n go online. Ni lah aku. Bile time tido, aku tkleh tido. Bile time bkn utk tido, senang2 je aku bleh tido. Lagi2 bile kt lecture. Setan datang goda aku suro tido.

Aku suke bgn pagi pagi nie psl dpt lihat matahari bersinar. Sinaran matahari tu slalu menceriakan aku. "Ouh Mr Sun, Sun, Mr Golden Sun..." hehex.

Lepas beli sarapan tadi aku gi pasar. Beli ikan. Masok pasar je aku blurr mcm sotong. Haha. Naseb baek aku tk terbeli sotong. Biaselah aku nie tk pernah pegi wet market beli ikan sendiri. Slalunye mak aku yg pegi. First time. Kalo pegi supermarket tu oklah. Beli makanan instant. Nyehehex. Kalo beli sayur pon mak aku kene explain kt aku berkali-kali. Baru aku faham. kalo tk faham jgk, aku terpakselah tanye makcik2 kt pasar. Dorg tengok aku mcm bdak kesian so dorg tolonglah aku. Biaselah makcik, faham2 ajelah. Anak dara zaman skrg.. hehex.

Haha. Selera aku skrg bagos. Mcm2 aku nk mkn. Nasi lemak la.. lontong la.. nasi sambal goreng la.. haha. Ni lagi time holidae. Tk keje. Dudok rumah mkn je. haha. Mesti badan naek. Tapi aku tk kesah sngt la kalo aku naek badan. Yg penting aku happy.. =)

Klah. Aku nk pegi tengok cartoon. Teen Titans! Woohoo.. favourite seyy... Tu lah keje aku. Tengok cartoon je.. I like cartoons, don't you like cartoons? hehex.

Tak kesahlah, gemok ke kurus ke.. panjang ke pendek ke.. hitam manis ke putih berseri ke... Yg penting, Hati mau bersih! Psl kalo hati bersih barulah boleh happy...=)

Skali skale post dlm bahase mlayu.. Bahasa ibundaku!! hehehex...

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-18T02:07:00.002+08:00

Biar Putih Tulang
Artist: Dinamik

Langkah terhenti
Degup jantung berderai
Terus menanti seribu tahun lagi
Rela aku begini dalam suasana yg sepi
Walau tersembuyi di malam gelap gelita

Mendung hadiri bumbung telah kubina
Yakin diriku tahu engkau menjelma
Terbakar dalam hujan
Mustahil bagi diriku
Banjir dalam kemarau
Takdir yang akan memastikan

Hajat di hatiku ingin mencapai bintang
Biar beribu batu
Daya aku tak mampu

Patah pujangga biar putih tulang
Jangan putih mata dan kecewa
Biar pun hilang kemana pun jua
Namun semangat ku tetap bersamamu

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-17T23:50:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

Heloha fellow human beings. I went to watch Step Up 2: The Streets today with some of my fellow friends (wassup with the "fellows"??). IT WAS COOL! Niceee! I loved it. Anybody out there willing to teach me popping? It's sooo cool. I've always wanted to do that but i don't know anyone whom i can approach. It's just sooo niceee.

After the movie, we went for Adiratna training. It was kinda fun coz we laughed most of the time as some of the things that we have to do are a bit...weird? I don't know if that's the right word but whatever. And we are having an Adiratna chalet in early April. 3 days, 2 nights. Like whoa.

Anyways, i haven't have any interesting stories for the holidays (sorry Mr. H) but i just wanna put up these song lyrics coz i think it has something to do with my life right now. I like associating songs with my situations in life. Kinda fun. Note: It's not from the same song. It's all from different songs.

1) Have some composure,
Where is your posture?
You're pulling the trigger,
Pulling the trigger all wrong

2) You're a regular decorated emergency
The bruises and contusions will remind me what you did when you wake
You've earned a place a top the ICU's hall of fame
The camera caught you causing a commotion on the gurney again.

3) I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
'Cause we all have so many things
And I can't get past these things

4) You're talking way too much
If you tell me one more time how I should let this go I'll bite your head off
I am who I am and I can't be no one else
You've got nothing nice to say
Keep your comments to yourself

5) You made room for me but it’s too soon to see,
If I’m happy in your hands.
I’m unusually hard to hold on to.

Whoa. That's like 5 songs? Hehehehe. Oh well...That's all i have for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
Paramore says: For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic.
I say: For a skeptic, I'm.Quite.A.Believer.

2008-03-17T08:24:00.002+08:00

Ros

soothes my soul

I've put it all behind me. So that my future is not disturbed. Move along. May we meet again.

Maryam and friends presented a nasyid in class yest.. haha.. A job well done.. Way to go Maryam!! Iman adalah mutiara... Di dlm hati manusia...

How i feel. Read my lips. Bcos I'm so over. Moving on. And it's my time.

Rosdahliana
petite.

2008-03-15T16:49:00.004+08:00

Ros

Phew!! Results out! haha.. And Alhamdulillah... i passed everything... My GPA pt still e same as last sem.. No improvement... I'm js glad that I passed... Bt hey it's nt over... Nx yr i must do better... Hope so.

What issit lyk to go against the flow???

Tough. Difficult. Different. Odd. Bt sumtimes i've gt no choice. Cos the majority is not oways right.

To Love Is Better Than To Be Loved.
Sumtimes sumone may not love you the way you want him to.. Bt he loves you with all the love that he has...

Rosdahliana

2008-03-15T12:45:00.002+08:00

.amalyna.

the past two days has been hectic i guess. waking up so freeken early in the morning and coming home late. came down for the enrolment on thurs to accompany abu and shah for their speakers thing then had to prepare our enrolment booth till late night. yesterday was out of the house at 6 met up with the rest of the OC. i guess it was quite fun to meet and persuade the freshies. the thing we say to pull them in. hahhs. but surely there are some interesting characters coming for camp. oh,saw fadhil and imran on thurs though not sure which sch they're from. then saw huiqi who's in DPFM BE (&on waiting list for camp) and also rong yuan. didn't recognise them at first. also two hks juniors joining camp. i think that's abt all. i don't think anyone i noe is in depm though. it's sad that our camp is catering for only 80 freshies (the waiting list is super long!) i guess we'll expand the numbers if manpower and budget permits it.

a lot of things need to be done during the weekends, though i'm sorry that i won't be around to help out today. i guess it means no sleep at all tomorrow night or the consecutive nights either. go prep camp!

i think my memory has deteriorated. i keep misplacing my stuffs and forgetting names.
my tastebuds has gone haywire and i can't take spicy food well now. oh, why?!?

2008-03-14T15:21:00.003+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

And the results are out! YEEHAA! Alhamdullillah, i passed. At least my GPA is better than last semester. Its not THAT good but at least its better :)

Amidst the glorious moments, i still have another war to wage against a psycho-retard. But i'm not staying home. I'm gonna sleep over my cuzzie's house. Cannot tahan la dey!

My thoughts:
If you think that everyone is going to be on your side this time round, then you're wrong because we have our own lives to lead and we MOVE ON.

That's all for the day. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
So.Move.On.Idiot.

2008-03-14T00:21:00.004+08:00

Andai diberikan emas permata,

ku pilih senyumanmu...

Andai ku punyai mahligai indah,

ku hadiahkan untukmu...

Ouhkay. Let's load summore pics....

Rosdahliana is my name.

Style ekh?? Thnks to Dayak's foggy lens.

Alalala... jambunye...

Slacker ekh bdk kt tengah tu...

HKSS buddies...

Ni ape buat??? Gambling ekh???

Sorie ekh terbalek.. Malas aku nk edit...

And this is kiki....

Buhbye.

Rosdahliana.

petite.

2008-03-13T15:23:00.004+08:00

Ki.Qi.Lah.

Here's the long-awaited photos ALL the way from AGM. It's a WHOLE lot of pictures. I almost died. -.-" Anyhoo, feast yourselves picture suckers...LoL!
Here we go...

Best dressed male and female! Heeee :DDDD

And here's the last one before i retire for that night...

Here's 2 of the pics of the 5th of March outing with some of the ex-hkss. Didn't upload them all coz its already one hell-of-a-long post.

Btw, may i know who edited this picture?

Sebabkan,baeknyer orang tu letak muke aku center! AHAHAHAHHAHAHAA!!! Narc siak kiki...ok..da cukop. Siket2 jek bole :P

That's all for now. Later-

-KiKi ouTz-
And.So.The.Fashionista.LIVES.

2008-03-11T20:31:00.005+08:00

scooping up chipping balls, fun! group photo with louisa,tony,adam&oli!

last photo taken with louisa, adam & tony. oli was MIA.*AWW*

.amalyna.

it's still just me.really.no kidding.

Heyys! Yea I noe it’s been like 2 weeks since my last entry. I couldn’t bring myself to type out my rantings. Anyways after add was settled, went for a quickie trip with the schoolmates. Not gonna talk much about that. The day after we got back, had to go “work” at the HSBC Women’s Challenge. That was a blast! It was tiring to assist at the registration counter all 4 morning but it was cool to be able to interact with people around the world. *rich people around the world, hahhs*. But from what I can tell, most Singaporeans are impatient and sometimes impolite. Our foreign guests were mostly super polite people and always greet and smile, makes us feel appreciated. Of course there are some Singaporeans like that as well but seriously our “kiasu-ness” can be horrible. Tsk! The working environment during the event was awesome especially working with the IMG Team, Louisa, Tony, Adam and Oliver. Really really nice people.

I really enjoyed the experience. Made me want to contribute to the country’s event industry even more, seriously! Lols, that’s about all I need to say for the event. Oh, golf is actually really cool. Man, I miss the chipping area.

so sorry to the peeps that i couldn't make it for the small gathering at ecp. really felt unwell. mum said it could probably be exhaustion since i didn't have enough rest ever since ADD. but all is fine now. i'll make some time to meet up!

These days been busy with FO stuffs, school as well as club. In fact had an overnight in school to settle some prep and enrolment stuffs. Hoping everything goes smoothly for FO. So much pressure from everyone else, can be frustrating sometimes. Oh well!

Nice blogskin anyways.

Thinking of making new changes.

I guess it has come to the point whereby I really don’t have to care what other people think.